Good sites to "unbrainwash" or "deprogram"one self?

[lostforgottensoul]

My mom is a f*cked in the head pedophile.

My mom hurt me...

My child self loves my mom...needed my mom...my child self hurts so bad


My child self needed my daddy and he wasnt there but my step dad was...

I didnt want to be touched in the van....

My step dad was a f*ckING PIECE OF SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I just wanted to be loved...

I just want to be loved...

I miss my mom...

 

[Justmehere]

I just wanted to be loved...

I just want to be loved...

I miss my mom...

:hug: @lostandforgottensoul

Me too.

 

[ghotiff]

Stockholm syndrome is where a captee bonds with their captor.

My abuse wasn't from my parents but I can imagine that a child would bond and love an abuse parent. I "loved" my abuser, that's what he wanted. But ... He was a peadophile

A huge step forward with your thoughts here. Just remember, huge steps need recovery time.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

My dad left me there...

I.was.so.scared..

At night when my step dad had "gentle sex' with me...it was the only time i was touched and not hurt...

 

[lostforgottensoul]

:hug: @lostandforgottensoul

Me too.

It hurts so bad

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Shes my mom...and she hurt me...and my dad left me...

They used god...what i knew from church to get me to believe it...

 

[Justmehere]

My mom is a f*cked in the head pedophile...
My step dad was a f*ckING PIECE OF SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All of what you wrote in that post, is exactly on track.

If these beliefs are hard to hang on to right now for very long, try not to judge yourself for it. You didn't learn the distorted thoughts overnight. Take this step by step, pace yourself, and you will get there.

Good job resisting the urge to self injure too. Self injury actually reinforces programmed thinking, so it's hugely important to keep fighting those urges.

 

[Justmehere]

Shes my mom...and she hurt me...and my dad left me...

They used god...what i knew from church to get me to believe it...

They should be in prison for doing this. For hurting you and abusing you, when you needed them to be safe, loving, kind parents, like all children need and deserve to have. Dragging religion into justifications for abuse just makes it all the more awful what they did.

I'm so sorry they did this. :hug:

 

[lostforgottensoul]

They should be in prison for doing this. For hurting you and abusing you, when you needed them to be safe, loving, kind parents, like all children need and deserve to have. Dragging religion into justifications for abuse just makes it all the more awful what they did.

I never pressed charges cuz shes my mom...

I linked my step dad's "gentle sex" with love...

"God told us to..." so i believed it...

Was i a bad child?

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Good job resisting the urge to self injure too. Self injury actually reinforces programmed thinking, so it's hugely important to keep fighting those urges.

Thats why im doing it here...if i dont i'll do something stupid.

Sorry for crowding a thread :(

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I tried so hard not to like the sex with the dogs but i did on accident so i recreate that to punish myself for liking it....