Annnnd I'm Fired...

[Zhantera]

so I just got fired for the first time ever. Half an hour ago. My mind is still kind of numb, but trying to run in a hundred different directions.
A few years back, my two daughters were killed in an accident. This has resulted in me having ptsd, panic attacks, and my therapist says gad as well. I'm trying to recover from an eating disorder as well.
So while I'm numb and hurt..part of me says, thank goodness. That stress is over. I know this job was a bad, horrible, awful fit. I had a phone job, which just multiplied my social issues a hundredfold. I would sit there and stress so bad over every call. They said I had no confidence, and that everyone has stress. I feel dumb, like, maybe are they saying I should have been past my kids' death by now? I dont know why I can't seem to pick up the pieces. Everywhere I see their faces. Most days I just feel like I'm going through some dumb motions of life, but I'm not sure what that is without them.
Thank goodness I have a super supportive husband, who is helping me to adjust and move on from this. Still. Awful hit to the already lacking ego. :( I feel cookies calling me. Great to be in a place where at least people understand!

 

[hodge]

I'm so sorry, Zhantera. It might be good for you to get unemployment benefits and rest for a bit. Take care.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

First, im VERY sorry for your loss! :hug:

I know this job was a bad, horrible, awful fit. I had a phone job, which just multiplied my social issues a hundredfold. I would sit there and stress so bad over every call.

This i can TOTALLY relate to! I work in an incoming call center for a well known national internet company as an internet and PC tech support. To have that 'i care' empathy for dumbass people is hard, especially when going through your own crap!

They said I had no confidence, and that everyone has stress. I feel dumb, like, maybe are they saying I should have been past my kids' death by now?

NO ONE, hear me, NO ONE "gets pass" their child's death. You just deal with what you can but dont put a time frame on grief. Everyone grieves differently! As long as you arent at a stand still, you are doing fine!

'They' arent speaking towards your grief or issues. Something i had to learn the hard why while telling my sup (an attempt to explain why i was going off on customers) "i grew up in a satanic cult"; thank god my sup is awesome!

They are speaking to just your tone on calls, how confidence is heard on the phone as to not let the customer know that you havent a f*cking clue what you're doing...or confidant that you do. But dont take their critisms of your job (or ex job) think you should he further along than you are. You are where you are.

Most days I just feel like I'm going through some dumb motions of life, but I'm not sure what that is without them.

I feel like that every day at work. I think we have to be numb as to be functional enough to work? You arent alone in this feeling, AT ALL!

Great to be in a place where at least people understand!

Yes it is! :hug:

 

[Virtues]

If they really implied that you should be over the death of your children then seriously eff them!!! The best place for you is a million miles away from those insensitive "A"holes!!! Please don't let this be an ego hit. These are sharks seriously eff them!!!

 

[Heather]

@Zhantera I am so sorry for your loss. I know how sh*tty it feels to be fired. I've been fired quite a few times due to my "issues".

It's a tough blow to the ego when it happens. File for unemployment and just keep looking forward. Hopefully your next job won't be so stressful.

I wish I had the words that could take away your pain but I don't think those words exist. Just know you are among great people who will support you endlessly when needed.

Hugs. Heather