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Assault Feeling Down After Seriously Being Stabbed...

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Hi Dustin. I am unsure of the details of your attack but something similar happened to me in September 2007. I am from New Zealand and after finishing High School i spent a year in Vancouver coaching rugby at a High School there. My friends and I from New Zealand and Australia went to a house party and a gang turned up looking for a person who they were threatening to kill. One of them pulled out a large hunting knife and started threatening people on the street. Being drunk and young (and believing I was somewhat bulletproof) I confronted them and ended up in a fight by myself with the four of them. During the fight I was stabbed in the back which punctured my lung which then collapsed. I did not realise that i had been stabbed in the back as I only knew of him slicing my arm at the beginning of the fight. It was only when i was walking away down the street and started struggling to breathe that my friend looked at the back of my shirt and realised that i was bleeding heavily. I ended up sitting on the side of the road being helped by some freindly locals who tried to stop the bleeding. Due to the police needing to clear the area before the ambulance could help me, my breathing became shallower and shallower and i was holding my friends arm and saying that i didnt want to die. My vision then went black and i believed that i was about to pass away. Luckily the ambulance got to me just in time and got me to hospital for surgery and over a week they drained a couple of litres of blood from my lungs.
My physical recovery was very quick as i was fit and strong before the incident and i was back in the gym and playing rugby after a few weeks. However after the accident i didnt deal with what had happened to me at all and just believed that I would be fine carrying on life as usual. But over the last four years my mental state has deteriorated a lot. I wont go into too much detail but i will outline what my symptoms have been in order to try and encourage you to seek help immediately. I was an outgoing, intelligent and physically active person before the incident but as time went on (a couple of years) I began to stop playing sports and couldnt find the motivation to attend university and could not picture myself with a career or having any success in life. It felt like I didn't get enjoyment out of anything any more and that I couldnt relate to anyone. I couldnt sleep unless I had a weapon under my pillow and became aggressive and struggled to even get out of bed most days and started smoking extremely heavily. I ruined the relationship with the girl who was the love of my life due to not being able to control my temper when I became frustrated (i wasnt physically abusive ever but verbally abusive and did some things out of character to hurt her due to not being able to control my anger when i felt hurt or frustrated). I then turned to drugs and alcohol and developed a drug problem for about a year as the drugs were the only thing that made me feel any kind of happiness.
A couple of months ago when i had almost ruined my relationships with most of my friends and my family due to my self destructive ways, i realised that i needed to make a change. I had really hit rock bottom and finally reached out to my family and a councillor for support. After 2 months of support i am now smokefree and drugfree and am possibly the most physically fit i have ever been. I now have goals and wake up with a smile on my face every morning. So my advice to you if you are feeling depressed is to seek help immediately because there are people out there who can help you. I have a lot of regrets and i hope that you dont end up with any
 
Yeah, these things build up over time. It's like a poison that you never get used to, it just steadily builds up if you don't find a way to deal with it. I didn't deal with my mental issues for a long time, mostly because doctors/authority figures were among the types of people that trigger my anxiety issues and partly because when I was in the military seeing a psychiatrist meant I might possibly lose my security clearance and my job. I deluded myself into thinking I'd get better when I was less stressed out and now it's years and years later and I have only just started seeing a regular doctor and getting medicine and even that was hard for me. I still freak out when I think of him touching me or when I tell him about stuff and I have seen him so many times and he's a nice guy.

The hardest things to deal with are incidents that involve people close to you. Betrayal is the worst poison. I don't know how close you are to your brother but I've had people I thought were friends and even members of my own family do terrible things that I can't possibly comprehend and which make me want to cry just thinking about. Things that destroy your ability to trust in other people are the worst. No matter how much faith you have in others in the beginning, no matter how much you want to believe in them or how you justify what they did, you might still find that it's easier to doubt others than in the past and that it's harder and harder to deal with the constant vigilance.

Well, having said that not everyone is wired the same way and you may indeed be getting better. But still, it's better to be sure you don't end up like some of us here.
 
Hi Dustin, I know exactly where your coming from, I too was stabbed in the back, was in hospital for 2 months and since then keep having flashbacks of what happened.

I am yet to go to a counciller or anything about it as I'm not really sure where to start.

Just letting you know your not on your own.
 
Dustin, I know what you are going through. I was stabbed in the chest in October 2011. The knife penetrated 55mm in to my flesh. I was flown to a city hospital for treatment. Two days later after my pericardium stopped leaking fluid from my injury I was released.

The person that stabbed me was arrested. In court the crown prosicuter offered him a deal cause he was new to the country (Canada). He is currently serving ninety days on the weekends and recieved one years probation. I think he should have got attempted murder, but wasn't up to me.

Now days I find myself on edge in certain situations. Large crowds, bars, dance clubs etc. It's like I can't enjoy myself with my wife like I used. It leaves me angry sometimes. I didn't ask for this, I didn't cause this.

I am not a violent person so it leaves me feeling very violated. Still haven't got past it. However I do know the depression you're going through. I went through that part already. I decided to get busy. As in active. The gym has become my best friend aside from my wife. It's helped me with frustrations and feelings. Right now its my own world. I don't drink there, I feel better about myself and I am getting healthy again after my injury.
 
The person that stabbed me was arrested. In court the crown prosicuter offered him a deal cause he was new to the country (Canada).

This has me spechless. In what way does being new to a country make a difference?

I'm glad you're working your way to recovery.
 
Hi, @Mike narotski - welcome to the forum. I saw from your post above that you quoted an earlier post, but you did not leave a message. Was there a question or comment you wanted to leave on this thread? If you go to this post: Link Removed, you can get some help learning how to use the forums. And again, welcome!
 
hi Dustin my name is Antonio and I got stabbed 6 times 4 years ago I'm lucky to be alive I was attacked one night by 2 gang members one of witch had a kitchen knife. I have similar feelings like stress, depression,and paranoia. Being stabbed is defiantly the worst thing I've been threw I just thank our lord Jesus Christ I'm still breathing today. I've been wanting to find other people who have been threw the same thing I did just like you it's amazing how something so traumatizing will make us want to connect with other victims of the same assault.anyway feel free to get back to me.
I also want to write an autobiography about what happend to me so if anyone can help me with that please get back to me. Sincerely Antonio
 
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Hello, my names Dustin. Recently I was stabbed in the back, causing my lung to puncture, and collapse. Th...
Hello my name is Benjamin and I was stabbed in the heart and lung and suffers from stress and anxiety and I can relate to you not being able to talk about it because people don't know my situation don't know what to do next.
 
Hello, my names Dustin. Recently I was stabbed in the back, causing my lung to puncture, and collapse. Th...
The same thing happened to me, it just takes some time maybe a years , I had was stabbed in my left lung threw my rib cage ,
 
Hello, my names Dustin. Recently I was stabbed in the back, causing my lung to puncture, and collapse. Th...
After the nightmares past you'll start feeling better , just try not to feel like down about it you have a 2nd chance
 
Hello, my names Dustin. Recently I was stabbed in the back, causing my lung to puncture, and collapse. Th...
Hello, I read your post, I really don't know where to start, but here goes, on June 5th 2010, at 11 o'clock at night, I ran up on some one beating up his girlfreind, I wasn't raised that way, so I did step in and stopped the situation, I'm the type that does not bully, but helps out if someone is helplessly being hurt, so I went over to stop the altercation, once I stopped it, the guy stood up, and stabbed me in the heart, and went threw left lower part of my heart and punctured my lung, I have learned threw this experience, that PTSD is a very serious condition, iv Ben battleing it since 2010, it is now 2016, if you have anything that would help, what could I do to help with my PTSD, I'm needing help with this
 
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