I got stabbed in the stomach by my friends uncle for no reason about five months ago. I got really bad ptsd symptoms. I've been going to counseling for it for a couple of months. I think about it every day, so I feel your pain. But things get better. It's a day by day process. But it totally changed my life. I stopped partying, started going to college to be a med assistant, and I'm a changed man. So just stay strong. You're in my prayers.