Hello, my names Dustin. Recently I was stabbed in the back, causing my lung to puncture, and collapse. Th...
Hi Dustin, I too was once a " Victim" of a stabbing. It was a hate crime because I am Gay. Long story short, I was 25, with a friend 18, and "The Stabber" 20.
I'm openly gay, my friend is bi sexual and the stabber was straight (supposedly). We got to his house and me and my friend started to have sexual interactions, we wanted the stabber to join in as he was really cute. Which he allowed us to perform oral on him and he seemed to enjoy it, by the sounds.
Earlier that nite, he had tried to strangle someone, I stopped it and we all fled. A red flag totally, which we ignored as we were on drugs (downers) and booze again, downers.
Mid-way during sex the stabber got up and we just thought he was going to the toilet or something. He came back with a black handled butchers Knife (approx 25-30cm long).
He stabbed me in the stomach, I fell to my knees weeping, but I didn't know I was weeping?? And begged him to stop ( I was butt naked, and so was may friend, the stabber had gt dressed).
He then struck again slicing my left hand and severing the tendons, again I begged he struck again and got my fore arm and again getting my finger (defence wounds) I decided that getting my clothes was the least of my worries and managed to get out while holding in my intestine, which was dangling out ( about 10cm ). I heard my friend scream, he to had been stabbed in the stomach too.
We both ended up in ICU and had undergone Laporotomy ( an incision from the pubic area, up around the belly button to the pectoral area, Google it ). For about 5 years after the stabbing, i would jump if i heard a noise (a bit like war veterans), and if something brushed up against me i would jump!!! Even my cat.
It became normal that I didn't even recognize it. Ppl would comment and say " Matt, why are you shaking? ", I would 100%honestly reply "I'm not, seriously I'm ok!!!") It gt annoying after the first few times. One day ( 6-7 yrs later ) I noticed the Jumping had stopped. I thought "I'm not jumpy any more, wow, great!!!!".
Doctors said I had PTSD, the anxiety is ongoing and I'm still on Valium for it. I have reduced my dose from a high level to much lower now, thankfully. At times I thought I was going mad!!!
That nite, the only thing that kept me going, to survive, was the thought of the police telling my mother your son was stabbed to death, or died from stabbing related injuries. And also I kept thinking this is how I'm going to die!! at 25 from a stabbing, HELL NO!!!!!!!! Horrible.
I am a Survivor now, and not a victim. I am reminded every single day when I look at my hand, or when I shower, which is mostly daily. I'm slowly getting back to normal after 12 long years. Co- coincidently, I saw him in social services, the day he was released, by accident. I told the lady and she hid me behind the desk.
I believe it was God letting me know he was out. He served 7 years. I rang and spoke to the detectives and they confirmed he had been released that day, in that town!! and my then partner and myself had gone up to this town for 3 days to visit family, Co-incidence????
I Thank God I'm still alive. God bless :)
