It's intresting go back to threads months later to see the differences in your answer then and your answer now.
Then in March, it apparently was all about getting control of my brain. Today, what drives me, is to be able to fully focus on something and seeing that something change. So I guess that's getting stuff done.
It's more like being able to be "all in" on a big goal and seeing how much I can actually move myself to that goal. The goals change and I have seen this in myself a few times, not just my goal right now. And I think the more goals I do hit, the more driven I become. So either I make small goals to the big one and each small one I hit the more driven I become or just seeing myself hit one goal drives me to the next one.
It's a really cool cycle once I build momentum. I sort of go at full pace then die down to sliding backwards until I can refocus again then back at it to a full run and then slide back. So to stop the sliding back or helping to keep a steady pace is a real struggle at the moment but it's funny to watch my therapist as he is trying to focus me and once I am off he sits back and watches. He loves it, it seems.
Anyway, that's what drives me, right now anyway. I am sure that will change.
