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    Sexual Assault Need Other Women's Experiences

    Okay thank you everyone for your responses. I do not feel so alone now. I think it will take some time like many of you said for my brain to accept the reality. I am going to bring it up to my T.
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    Sexual Assault Need Other Women's Experiences

    Hello, I really just want the advice and to knowing if any other women experience this. If you aren't a female please do not continue reading this has taken a lot to muster the courage to post this in the first place. Some background I was sexually assaulted for years as a child. I am now 20 and...
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    Feeling Alone

    Hey sorry I got off track for a little while and stopped checking here. I am doing okay. Still battling with some of these questions but I know it takes time and that really these are just wounds that need to heal. I’ve done some more opening up to my girlfriend which has helped a lot. Even...
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    Feeling Alone

    Thank you. It is hard to do so but I know it’s what is needed.
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    Feeling Alone

    I guess I want to start at the begging so you know my situation a bit. I am a college junior and over a year ago I took a child abuse class as a part of my major. I thought nothing of it tbh it’s stuff I read about and study all the time in the criminology field. But we did a case study and...
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    Not Ready? Need to begin talking about what happened to me, but cancel appointments or talk about pointless things in therapy.

    I feel as if I am hitting a wall in T. I have canceled numerous appointments in the past couple of months as well as just not wanting to go. I'm pretty sure because I know what I need to do next and I just do not want to. I need to begin actually talking about the things that happened to me as a...
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    Finished sophomore year of college

    Last week I finished my finals for my second year of college. I think I did pretty good. I’m expecting all A’s and one B in my honors class. Being a student in a pandemic has not been easy. Also a student in the middle of recovering traumatic memories and starting new medication and therapy. I...
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    Why do we keep going?

    I often feel this way. It feels like your constantly losing an uphill battle. But with help that feeling comes around less and less often. I was sexually assaulted by an older relative for at least six years. It has taken me almost one year now of intense T to start to feel better. I’ll be...
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    Getting anxiety from girlfriend being upset

    Yes I do and am going to bring it up in my session next week. But I really do appreciate you responding I did just feel very alone in this issue
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    Getting anxiety from girlfriend being upset

    So recently I have had a few flashbacks and anxiety attacks when my girlfriend has done some things. For example she accidentally pushed against my leg in a weird position and I had a flashback ( I have cptsd). When I came out of it she was crying and really upset and was blaming herself for...
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    3 Months of Weekly Therapy has dragged me out of the pit

    Thank you I have recently been starting trauma counseling over the last couple months for sexual assault from the age of 6-12 and T has been really discouraging. It seems that I keep uncovering more trauma with no end in sight. But this was a nice positive note by you to keep going.
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    Feeling guilty when partner feels guilty

    So recently I have had a few flashbacks and anxiety attacks when my girlfriend has done some things. For example she accidentally pushed against my leg in a weird position and I had a flashback ( I have cptsd). When I came out of it she was crying and really upset and was blaming herself for...
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    Therapy Making it worse

    Yes, I see a trauma therapist and I do think I need to discuss how badly these sessions have been affecting me. Thank you for the advice. I am still very new to this world and been keeping stuff hidden for a long time so it is really hard for me to open up when I'm truly hurting even to my T...
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    Therapy Making it worse

    Yeah, see my biggest coping mechanism is sarcasm so when I'm leaving I'm "laughing" and distracted by my own jokes. Yet as soon as I get in the car to drive home and alone with my thoughts I start really spiraling. I think I need to start focusing on the current good things in my life at the end...
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    Therapy Making it worse

    Thank you. I do have someone who helps to ground me on those really bad days. I have told my T but I think I have been holding back on how bad it is and that is obviously not helpful. I am going to be more open with how bad its been at my next session.
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