Recent content by Syd.vicious

Thank you, I appreciate the response and it something I’m starting to work on. Just feels weird knowing things from my child perspective but also feeling it as an adult. It can make me quite mad at myself but I know kid me didn’t know and yeah it’s just a battle. But feels better knowing I’m not...

Thank you all for the responses. It makes me feel a lot better actually hearing from others suffering or who have suffered with this problem. I am gonna talk to my T and see if we could begin work on this. I feel like I have kinda hit a wall in therapy because of this internal battle but maybe...

So recently I have been talking with survivors of SA at my university but it’s just not the same. I was sexually abused for eight years from 4-12. While everyone I have talked to has had their experience as an adult. Which I’m not saying isnt bad. But I have been struggling a lot recently with...

Okay thank you everyone for your responses. I do not feel so alone now. I think it will take some time like many of you said for my brain to accept the reality. I am going to bring it up to my T.

Hello, I really just want the advice and to knowing if any other women experience this. If you aren't a female please do not continue reading this has taken a lot to muster the courage to post this in the first place. Some background I was sexually assaulted for years as a child. I am now 20 and...

Hey sorry I got off track for a little while and stopped checking here. I am doing okay. Still battling with some of these questions but I know it takes time and that really these are just wounds that need to heal. I’ve done some more opening up to my girlfriend which has helped a lot. Even...

Thank you. It is hard to do so but I know it’s what is needed.

I guess I want to start at the begging so you know my situation a bit. I am a college junior and over a year ago I took a child abuse class as a part of my major. I thought nothing of it tbh it’s stuff I read about and study all the time in the criminology field. But we did a case study and...

I feel as if I am hitting a wall in T. I have canceled numerous appointments in the past couple of months as well as just not wanting to go. I'm pretty sure because I know what I need to do next and I just do not want to. I need to begin actually talking about the things that happened to me as a...

Last week I finished my finals for my second year of college. I think I did pretty good. I’m expecting all A’s and one B in my honors class. Being a student in a pandemic has not been easy. Also a student in the middle of recovering traumatic memories and starting new medication and therapy. I...

I often feel this way. It feels like your constantly losing an uphill battle. But with help that feeling comes around less and less often. I was sexually assaulted by an older relative for at least six years. It has taken me almost one year now of intense T to start to feel better. I’ll be...

Yes I do and am going to bring it up in my session next week. But I really do appreciate you responding I did just feel very alone in this issue

So recently I have had a few flashbacks and anxiety attacks when my girlfriend has done some things. For example she accidentally pushed against my leg in a weird position and I had a flashback ( I have cptsd). When I came out of it she was crying and really upset and was blaming herself for...

Thank you I have recently been starting trauma counseling over the last couple months for sexual assault from the age of 6-12 and T has been really discouraging. It seems that I keep uncovering more trauma with no end in sight. But this was a nice positive note by you to keep going.

So recently I have had a few flashbacks and anxiety attacks when my girlfriend has done some things. For example she accidentally pushed against my leg in a weird position and I had a flashback ( I have cptsd). When I came out of it she was crying and really upset and was blaming herself for...