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Alec
Hello. I first joined this site five years ago and forgot I did until I found an old password book this afternoon. And based on my lifestyle and inability to get things done I could well have c-ptsd. I certainly have complex trauma from my childhood development years in the form of verbal abuse, child abuse from my dad at times and neglect. I know it affects me today. Attending Adult Children of Alcoholics/ Dysfunctional Families has helped me see why I react to situations as I do. (Writing this out tells me it's time to get back to a live meeting).
My therapist suggested a couple of years ago that I have ADHD and that I go on medication. I did for three weeks and nearly had to admit myself to a drug detox facility (fortunately found Pills Anonymous). Since that experience I can't take any kind of psych med without feeling some kind of ptsd. The basics of ADHD are loss of focus and not paying attention, forgetting, daydreaming but I've been adamant that it's really me just existing in survival mode most of the time with my brain freezing more to protect itself. My cPTSD has lead to codependency as well as being an adult child, gender dysphoria (mild), marriage of convenience (currently long distance), emotional affairs, sexual addiction, work addiction, being stuck at home caregiving a 99 year old mother. It's time to let this out and I thank you for reading this.
My therapist suggested a couple of years ago that I have ADHD and that I go on medication. I did for three weeks and nearly had to admit myself to a drug detox facility (fortunately found Pills Anonymous). Since that experience I can't take any kind of psych med without feeling some kind of ptsd. The basics of ADHD are loss of focus and not paying attention, forgetting, daydreaming but I've been adamant that it's really me just existing in survival mode most of the time with my brain freezing more to protect itself. My cPTSD has lead to codependency as well as being an adult child, gender dysphoria (mild), marriage of convenience (currently long distance), emotional affairs, sexual addiction, work addiction, being stuck at home caregiving a 99 year old mother. It's time to let this out and I thank you for reading this.
welcome to the site. 
