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Hello all!! I'm running on bad sleep so hopefully this makes sense. I have been talking/building a friendship with someone I met on a dating app (we were both generally looking for friends) since August. I'm moving to their location, or was planning to, with my parents. But, long story short, my...

I'm so glad to hear it makes you feel safe @Janet Anne this site has been so helpful to me over the years and I hope it is to you too!! Wow, how much a month changes. I found a place and a possible job, and I move tomorrow!! It was a whirlwind. I tend to do best when things happen fast. I've...

Thank you @blackemerald1 !!! I think it’s bringing up a lot of past trauma, too. I’ve had so many BPD issues lately. Maybe I’ll make a separate post about that!! But it’s also been better than it ever had so that’s good!!

Thank you @blackemerald1 !! I'm back :) my psych helped, I listened to my BPD podcast and that helped, and talked with a few friends. I'm in a like quadruple liminal space right now. I'm moving almost 1000 miles away, but I don't know when, I don't know if it'll be with my parents or by...

I just resisted this and I did better for a long while !! and I'm rereading all of y'all's advice and it's helping so much all over again. Focus on the present. On now. Not the next five years, the next five days or minutes. I got this. Thank you all.

Hello all, I'm just having a really really bad time. Especially the last few days. I was much better for a while, but I went on a trip, and when I got back I've been so depressed and anxious. I have a psych appointment tomorrow but I've been having horrible mood swings, BPD symptoms, suicidal...

Thank you both!! The podcast is called "The Last Symptom (Of Borderline Personality Disorder)" I think the hosts name is Brian Barnett, he isn't professionally trained but he had BPD for I think 35 years and no longer has symptoms. I take some of it with a grain of salt but also, he's so so...

Hello all thank you!! I appreciate all of your responses!! I’ve been doing much better since I did the psych appointment. I also found a podcast that discusses Recovery from BPD that has helped so so so much. And the day after I wrote this I told my feelings to the person I was feeling them for...

I haven't been able to improve my mental health basically since last July 2020. I've tried one new med, getting off another med, I've been in intensive therapy, I have a wonderful friend network, my family is relatively supportive, I just feel horrible, all of the time. I'm going to a new psych...

I decided I'm going to reconsider moving with my parents. I think I was only doing it because I had this crush. I feel really stupid but I think I may ask them to stop talking to me and just part ways so I can focus on my own life and goals and actually do something with my life because all I've...

Thank you!! it helped and I have it again tomorrow. I am still struggling with this but it'll be okay I guess haha. They want to take me on a "friend date" so idk what that means. It's like... I both want that and also want something different. Ugh, I just feel like I'm so bad at this.

Thank you @Deanna, I hope you can find a job that works for you soon!! I'm so sorry you've been through such rough times. Being understood is the main attribute I look for in a relationship (platonic, romantic or otherwise), and usually I gravitate towards people who have also had experiences...

Hi @Deanna I'm sorry about your loss!! I'm diagnosed with PTSD and borderline personality traits. I'm both sorry I'm not alone and glad?? lol. I used to drive 50 miles to see my abusive ex. I honestly don't have a problem with long distance haha. I just am scared of it all now.

Hey all, I've had some trauma come up, the last two days I've been incredibly triggered, and I've been examining my behaviors in a detached way (instead of reacting, I'm taking time and responding, and I'm SO proud of me!!) and some more stuff has come up and I feel like I have a clearer...

I honestly didn't even think of it like that but omg you make me feel so good!! thank you so much. I was really worried that I was going to regress into being "bad" again but tbh I think I can be the nice, kind, and caring part of me and the intriguing interesting and fun part too. That's how I...

today half the day I thought I was like some cool character, who I used to be, who never got heartbroken and always was the heartbreaker because I didn't actually care about the people that I was dating, and I would manipulate myself to be who they wanted, never who I actually was, except this...

Hey all!! I’m feeling really guilty and angry at myself right now. I’ve been talking to someone since August and we’re friends. Like I know we’re friends, but I would flirt here and there and they would flirt back. I thought I had feelings for them. We talk every day, video call, share deep...

I think I've stabilized!! Just depressed now, but that's ok considering how messed up my life is lol. Thank you both!!

Thank you @ms spock!! I’m still awake but trying haha

Hi @ms spock and @Friday, I am totally off of it now and while I’m still sort of regretting it, I didn’t anticipate this living situation (it’s due to COVID and quarantine which was an added stress, just waiting for more of us to get sick. We didn’t who are living here, though, but I’m still...

Hey all! I've been finally coming off the Geodon I've been on for four years. I'm on buspar as well, recently started, and finally felt like I could get off the geodon. Throughout this month I've tapered and last night I tapered from 40mg to 20mg in the middle of also being displaced from my...

I have multiple hip and pelvic injuries (next year will be my ten year anniversary with them haha!). There have been times I can't exercise, and my pain has been worse, but I've found what's "safe" for me. I try to walk 1-1.5 miles a day and right now I'm also doing 20 mins of yoga a day...

the picture hasn't loaded for me, but I feel your pain. I've also been through sexual trauma starting at 8, and I have suspected endometriosis, fortunately I was able to get on a birth control that takes my 7/10 pain spells where I couldn't walk or move down to 3-4/10 with mobility. I don't...

I'm trying, I've emailed five people and only one got back to me and said she was booked, but gave me a name of someone else. I'll call soon maybe tomorrow it just got deprioritized when I was moving. They're okay but they were kind of terrible for a bit there. I just feel like I'm floundering...

this is why no one wants to date me I'm disgusting. Now I have to get over someone I didn't even date because that's what I do because I'm a loser. I want to give up. I'm already planning on maybe starving myself the next few days because then maybe someone would love me, so Gotta sleep a lot to...