Strangelongtrip
MyPTSD Pro
Hello all,
I'm just having a really really bad time. Especially the last few days. I was much better for a while, but I went on a trip, and when I got back I've been so depressed and anxious. I have a psych appointment tomorrow but I've been having horrible mood swings, BPD symptoms, suicidal ideation (to the point it's not really safe for me to drive, I don't have a plan but I've looked up how to do certain stuff and then felt sick to my stomach), sef harm urges but haven't relapsed, and get into fights constantly.
Every good thing in my life I pick apart bc I don't believe it's possible for me to be happy or for good things to happen. I'm going to write the rest in the morning, I had to take extra meds to make sure I didn't hurt myself. But I'm okay. I'll try to remember to come back here tomorrow and talk it out. I'm in therapy, which is a huge help, I just am struggling a lot.
Thank you
I'm just having a really really bad time. Especially the last few days. I was much better for a while, but I went on a trip, and when I got back I've been so depressed and anxious. I have a psych appointment tomorrow but I've been having horrible mood swings, BPD symptoms, suicidal ideation (to the point it's not really safe for me to drive, I don't have a plan but I've looked up how to do certain stuff and then felt sick to my stomach), sef harm urges but haven't relapsed, and get into fights constantly.
Every good thing in my life I pick apart bc I don't believe it's possible for me to be happy or for good things to happen. I'm going to write the rest in the morning, I had to take extra meds to make sure I didn't hurt myself. But I'm okay. I'll try to remember to come back here tomorrow and talk it out. I'm in therapy, which is a huge help, I just am struggling a lot.
Thank you