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Simple back story... am in a crisis house. Being here has triggered me for a number of reasons. Night times are especially bad and I'm phobic about going to bed. I've been in a state of 'i can't do anything about it' until last night staff here encouraged me to think about a sleep routine to try...

I'm 1.5 years into specialist therapy for trauma and dissociation... I've had many therapist's spanning a 20 year period. Things are progressing with therapy but there are still set backs and I think it's a slow process. T has suggested EMDR for processing traumatic memories without me having...

Uuhgghhh...I know it's a part of the therapy...T handled it really well and also encouraged me to talk about it.... but still.... There was a definite barrier in therapy today from one of my parts. They were trying to stop T from asking more questions about younger parts and things we'd...

15 months in to specialist trauma therapy (dissociative disorder focused), and T and I are finally beginning to get to talking a bit more about the trauma..or at least parts of it.... a very small part. I was working with one of my teenage parts on writing what is remembered about being at my...

I have OSDD. Been diagnosed for 8 years. Only started specialist therapy for dissociative disorders 14 months ago. I do find it difficult accepting my diagnosis. But I can also see how that in itself is part of an elaborate internal system to keep me from addressing the trauma and realising the...

Uggh could really do without this but can't ignore any more. I have OSDD. My teenage part has started to develop feelings for my T who is around the same age as adult me. Doesn't help that he is quite good looking 😕. As adult me, I don't have any romantic feelings towards him AT ALL. So this is...

This is embarrassing and hard to reach out for feed back. But it's something which has become a bit obsessive (thinking about/ trying to understand) for me, because I have different parts of me holding different and conflicting views about it, and their different, opposing reactions are...

I'm receiving therapy from a clinic which specialises in dissociative disorders... I've always struggled with accepting the diagnosis (denial is strong) and I've been told its all part and parcel of being so dissociative, having strong amnesia etc. Communication with my parts is difficult...

I have a very good therapist (clinical Psychologist). 6 months in and I have to say I feel very well held and contained in general. But I've been struggling with knowing how to accept my diagnosis of having a dissociative disorder. Been having glimpses of seeing how it fits. And when that...

Hi everyone, . I'm looking for an app, or shared platform, to use between therapy sessions with my therapist. Part of the difficulty for me right now, as a result of my dissociative disorder, is pretty bad amnesia. I do forget session content and more importantly I forget the states I...

Haven't been on here for a while as have tried to focus on me and new therapy (am 6 sessions in). All in all, he's calm, gentle, not pushy and I don't have any major concerns at this point. Just waiting for the relationship to develop in its own time. He is trying to encourage me to work...

This is about my dad only not my mum... My friend told me that I don't owe my dad anything and that the work here is for me to start slowly snipping away at the parental cords that binds us, as it's so unhealthy... First, this never even occurred to me as an option. Second I absolutely DO...

Been deliberating whether to think about this, let alone post about it. But it keeps surfacing and knocking at my door strongly in the last 3 days. Think it is because I read about the need to accept when abuse happens to you. That it's abuse. If only parts of it were that simple. I have one...

So T and I have had, what is to me, a an unexpected disagreement over email. I couldn't sleep until 4am lost night because of it and would appreciate some opinions on it. I know alot of you will think I'm over reacting but I genuinely can't help how I feel. I had a necessary but brutal...

I don't mean like do you get yourself a cup of tea when you're feeling down, or go out and do retail therapy to cheer yourself up. I mean how do you sit with yourself on your own and work with yourself to start trying to develop self-love and compassion? I think I'm at the stage where I'm...

I'm feeling increasingly upset by my partner's rage. Hence why I'm writing late at night because when I go to bed (I sleep on my own), everything comes out. Can't stop crying. Not sure if I'm being over sensitive or too dramatic and I know people go through alot worse. But I feel very alone...

On a separate note, I'm still looking into getting funding to receive therapy from a centre which specialises in DD and dissociation. I asked them how that would work given I live far from the clinic and obviously the answer was 'online sessions'. I mean great to have a potential option for...

Not sure if I'm allowed to use the forum in this way. Sorry if not. It's 1.30am... I can't sleep. I'm scared someone's going to break in and hurt me and my son. I feel really vulnerable. I'm on the brink- I know it's not logical. But my brain is hearing every single tiny noise in the house and...

Went to T tonight. During the week, I sent him an email (which I'm not supposed to do) with info in it from another professional who writes/ does educational videos on dissociative disorders. (This person has a clinic which specialises in dissociative disorders and is well regarded). I told him...

Spent the whole day with J today. I don't get to see him that often. Once/ twice a week. We ALWAYS have sex if we meet. And this causes a massive internal conflict in me. One part of me wants to have sex with him. Another part constantly mistrust his intentions and always thinks that he's using...

I got diagnosed with DDNOS about 7 years ago. Took it with a pinch of salt. Carried on with my life feeling i didn't really need to accept or work on the diagnosis. Plus I couldn't have anyway as there was no one (including therapists) to help me with this. 7 years later, been dawning on me...

Bit of a weird one. But I've noticed that when I'm out of therapy I can't recall my T's face. I've only had 10 sessions with him but when I look at him in my minds eye out of session time, it's like there's a blank there. Can't recall his whole face or really even parts of it. I have an...

I don't have a plan of action for when I'm in crisis (emotional flashbacks leading to sleep deprivation complete overwhelm and suicidal thoughts, feelings and wishes)... I don't have the option to email T in any capacity and there's no one else currently who I can tell... So I need a plan...

My memory of parts of my childhood, like so many here, isn't very good and never has been. My everyday memory has been getting worse over the past few years - specifically last 3 years. Even more specifically last few months. I'm in my early 40s. When I say memory I'm talking about my ability...

I've spiralled really quickly today. Bad night sleep. Other triggers for me questioning my state of mind, myself, my reality... feel like I'm losing it and I'm scared. I'm just so tired and just increasingly feel like not being here is an appealing option.... i don't get to this place often (I...