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Last week, my therapist yelled at me and said “I call bullshit” twice. This was in reference to me not doing self care and making an effort to follow the things I’ve learned how to do. My sensitive personality felt threatened. I pushed back saying that I forgot about my list. Younger parts...

I have been trying to go from a 75/37.5 combo to 75. I realize that’s a small change, but I’m very sensitive to medication. I’m doing everything I can to help my high blood pressure, lower cost and stop this weight gain. So far, I tried emptying some of the capsule and putting it back...

I’m scheduled to have a hysterectomy in a little over a month. My doctor wants a different/better surgeon to do the robotic surgery because he said that I have a difficult case. Scar tissue attaching my uterus to my abdominal wall or something like that. I’m a little panicked because I don’t...

I’m coming off of a very stressful journey of possible cancer (PTS feelings) that has now turned into a “let’s keep watch on the nodule.” Had a therapy rupture, that I thought was resolved and T vacation tossed in there too. When she came back, our meeting was fine. I left ok. Then, I woke...

Looking into substance abuse out patient intensives. Any ideas of what works or recommendations to consider?

I have a very specific flashback where I’m shoved and pinned into a tall wooden cabinet. I’ve had it hundreds of times and have worked on it. It used to terrify me. Now, I find it oddly comforting in a way. I have no idea why. Does this happen to anyone? Maybe it’s more of an intrusive...

What does it mean when a therapist tells you that you abandon yourself?

Is it possible that a TBI can cause a person to develop PTSD from past traumas unrelated to the head injury?

Has anyone tried or heard of EMDR 2.0? It’s supposed to be good for cptsd and treatment resistant trauma. (My therapist wants to try it with me. She recently attended a training on it).

Okay, to be fair, I am already fat. However, I just gained 7 lbs in the last 8 weeks after having been the same weight for many years. I initially took trileptal. 1800. We added Effexor last summer 37.5 and I lost 7 lbs for awhile. Then it steadily came back. In November my daughter had...

I take a really low dose of Effexor. It was helping and I didn’t want to go higher. My trileptal has been consistent and if I try to raise the dose I’m clearly unable to function. Crashing into walls if I try to walk. My p-doc told me that is the clue that I shouldn’t take more. My concern...

My therapist has given me a hand written card for her vacations to serve as a transitional object for the last few years. Recently, she mentioned that she would like for me to consider ending this, but it will be up to me. I don’t rely on the cards as much as I used to, but having it helps me...

My young college daughter, started cutting again, was contemplating downing some pills and chose 911 instead. She stayed in the ER alone all night and chose to be moved to a mental hospital. I find it odd that the ER gave her the choice but didn’t explain what she was getting herself into...

Today, I told T that my sexual fantasies are f*cked up and part of my self harm. I’ve talked around this for years, but I laid it ALL out on the table. Even worse yet, I told her that I trust her and asked her, “when the hell did this happen?” She was all genuine smiles today. At the end she...

Has anyone had a surge of anxiety mid day after taking Flonase nasal spray?

Has anyone gotten past a belief that CSA or adult rape was their fault? How do you do that? My T says that whether something was my fault or not, I still deserve emotional care. My mind is spinning on that as well.

I saw my T after she returned from her vacation last week. Everything went fine. I didn’t email her anything through the course of the week (normally I send her some thoughts or triggers and we discuss it later in session, I have actually not ever gone an entire week without sending at least...

In therapy, we put together a string of events from my childhood that bring up very intense feelings. One of the worst moments involved parental “abandonment” and I have blanks all around it. Just extreme emotional pain. My life improved after that event (for awhile) until negative patterns...

I’ve been calling the following examples panic attacks, but then I read a thing about panic attacks for people with anxiety and now I’m confused. example: I read something that triggers a flashback and I relive the emotions of the event which cause intense panic, escape, crying, shaking. Is...

I freak out when my T leaves town. We have a routine about it, she tells me as soon as she knows the schedule will change, we talk about my feelings, she gives me a hand written card before she goes. I busy myself while she is gone. I deal with horrible feelings, she returns and acts like...

I’ve been fighting some depression symptoms and an increase in anxiety this past year. It’s all kind of coming to a scary point, so my p-doc recommended trying effexor xr in addition to my 1800 mg of trileptal. I had already tried 3 ssri’s, Wellbutrin, and cymbalta. This one seems to actually...

Having a colonoscopy screening tomorrow. Family history makes it kind of necessary. Doing the prep. Spent three days with no healthy veggies, fruit or fiber. Now all I can eat is clear liquids and jello. My anxiety and depression feelings are through the roof. Discovered in therapy that I’m...

Today, I realized that I tend to avoid working on on trauma by feeling bothered by other trauma. My T already knew this was going on. We are still trying to bring everything down in SUDS by using Flash EMDR before working out the detailed spots that really bother me. So, today we put both big...

During my original emdr sessions, parts appeared. Not so much actual parts, maybe? I would just disassociate a bunch, live in different realities. I would speak to my therapist in plural, cope by separating my trauma self from my current self. She would ask me what age my emotions were...

My T asked me how I get out of the trance when I’m triggered. The back story is that I’ve had an increase of flashbacks or relationship conflicts leading to some very painful negative beliefs about myself in the last few months. My T has helped me very sparingly between sessions and removed...