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I made myself an omelette. It was a nice surprise since I hate eating in the morning unless it's in liquid, caffeine form or combustible, smokable form. I threw in tomato, onion, three cheeses and a bunch of other crap that I can't remember but I can't tell you the last time I've eaten...

Autoimmune conditions get much worse with stress, but this is a real thing. Raynaud's phenomenon. There is also a Raynaud's Disease which is primary, but the phenomenon occurs very often with people who are dealing with rheumatic conditions and/or stress conditions. Having both is awful, I'm...

One thing I say to myself, sometimes out loud is exactly what my father used to say when I was tip-toeing on insanity over stress. He'd say, "Whoaaa, easy girl." like I was a spooked horse. I've said it through tears, anger, frustration. I got a feeling he is smiling from wherever he is when...

@vampire girl - I know that look! lol I do the same thing. I'm all like "Wut YOU lookin' at?!" when in reality, she's looking at someone taller than me that's standing behind me. That's really the one thing that makes me a bipolar roller. If someone talks down to me, it triggers the ptsd in...

omg I had a guy say something similar to me. He said, "I can see the way you look at me.", in that tone. Thing is, I look at people when they talk to see if they believe what they are telling me. If they have no confidence in their words, or if I feel like I'm being lied to, I stare them down...

Thanks for the replies! I think you're right about it being a 'numbness' or disassociation thing. I never really looked at it that way. I was all like, "omg i'm cured!" lmao which I find hysterical. But I can see now how anything sudden that happens might be diverted from my mind until I...

I feel for you Kas, I have always been in a similar situation. Living with or near the people and having to either see them, hear about them, even just knowing they are there is enough to make a person want to start new somewhere really far away. A couple of times I had to talk myself out of...

I hear you. I'm bipolar with ptsd, but the bipolar is the part that sends me out into the world like a maniac sex fiend. lol. Sounds so wrong, and it is, but it's okay. I sort of do the same thing as you, I stay home quite a bit. I'm scared of going back out there and doing the same thing...

I used to be an electrical storm ready to strike at any moment. My startle response was so high that I would run from Effexor brain zaps. People on the highway used to scare me by the way they drove, getting too close, driving too fast, etc. Sounds and lights, talking or yelling would send me...

I hear that. I totally love people, for about 2 weeks. Then it's like.. why u callin' me? Even though it's what I thought I wanted when I got into the idea of dating. The novelty wears off and I come to conclusion that if we go further than 2 weeks, then I have to tell him about myself.. and...

Nope. Nature gave me this wonder. I wouldn't want to give away trade secrets ;)

Food is not my friend right now, and hasn't been for 3 months. I'm just realizing this as an issue again, but it's not the same eating issue as it used to be. I did experience anorexia for a long while, but it didn't begin with the want to be thin. It actually started because I replaced all...

For people with fears and anxieties that borderline or go into paranoia, having an animal that you believe to have greater sensory capabilities than your own can put the mind at ease in general. It may not be so much that the animal can sense adrenaline or the chemical reactions, but perhaps...

I used to think of some outbursts of emotion as a set back. omg I felt so bad about myself. After a while of feeling really terrible, I got so sick of it. It reminded me of a dog I had once. He was so bad, but we were best friends. I thought he wasn't trustworthy, but he always did exactly...

Neurontin plus Remeron sounds like it's reaaaaaally hard to stay awake. Remeron has a hangover during the day that's like... a weird fog. Not even an interesting fog. Like an annoying fog lol. I did take both for a while. Neurontin worked better when I took it with less other stuff because...

This is month 2 of Prazosin for me, and I have to say that it evens out those huge adrenaline spikes that would normally lead me to overreact (inside and out). I think it is mainly dosed at night, but it doesn't induce sleep. What it might do as a side effect is dizziness and a sort of...

Hey Wendy! Oddly enough, I just went through a similar few weeks with my bipolar. Mine was med-tapering related, but manic is panic any way you slice it. The one thing that got me through until I had some real help (when my meds kicked in) was benedryl and melatonin. Sounds like small...

I've been avoiding food for as long as I can remember. Don't get me wrong, I love food and I love to cook. When I smell it, it smells great and appetizing. When I eat it, I get through 2 bites and it feels like I'm being made to eat a raw hotdog covered in grape jelly. However, there are...

The house is awake. It sounds strange but I grew up in this house, and it goes through periods where it sleeps. This means that nothing weird happens in it. Weird things always happen in this house, and in the entire neighborhood. I don't think anyone on my street would debate that. It's...

You know, I never even considered it a possibility that there would come a time where I didn't need therapy. The concept is mind-blowing to me because I've been in it since I was 15. But yes, I know. She needs to go. Looking at it from this way, maybe that's why I feel like I've been getting...

During arguments that had topics that were triggers for me, I'd stop mid-sentence of my yelling, and go lay down and pass out lol. I would wake up 20 minutes later and be all like, "What?". For years people thought I was in a sleepwalk or something. Sooooo drowsy! I wonder why I can't feel...

I've been with my therapist for a while now, say.. 11 years. She's a stellar person, and I consider her a friend. The back story is that the clinic where I met her and began sessions basically closed and didn't alert any of the patients to get new therapists and psychiatrists. So, we were...

If I didn't feel horrified at the the things I'm horrified at, I'd be worried. I think we feel that emotion for a very special reason. Instinct! I never used to factor in instinct as I always thought being a human, I didn't have any lmao. But seriously, that stage before fight or flight is...

Those nightmares are the scariest because they come from a place that seems so much bigger than us. A natural event is something that leaves people feeling very, very small. Feeling helpless, or small in the grand scale of an earthquake is so normal. The nightmares reflect that helpless...

When I took benzos, I had bruises up and down my legs all the time. I think some meds can thin your blood to the point where it doesn't take much to bruise really easily. I seriously looked like someone gave me a flogging at one point. It was summer and I had to wear pants and I was dying...