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So, I went to the ER because I could hardly breath and was hyperventilating so bad that I almost passed out... The DR ran many tests and concluded that it was anxiety. Now, a week later, it's still happening and my "confusion spells" are back. My confusion spells make my vision dim and I see...

Thank you all so much for taking the time to reply! @Ladyghosthunter, I am so sorry for what you went through! I was raised in the south too, by the way. I was part of the perfect family that wasn't so perfect. @Go Hungry, I am so sorry for what you went through too. At times I would feel...

OK, so, last night a thought occurred to me. One that I don't have an answer to and thought maybe I could find one here. I have a serious problem with friends. I always think I annoy them, I'm always scared they are going to leave me, etc etc. So, last night was when the thought occurred to...

Alright. I suppose not. Sort of what I wanted to hear. My mom agreed that she could understand where I was coming from but that it wasn't right. She is right, its pandoras box. Sure I erased a bunch of years of my young life, but what if it came back? I have diaries during those years and I'll...

So, I was honestly looking more forward to new years than Christmas. The idea of starting over where I currently am sounded amazing. Then came the New Year resolution which I never do. Maybe its time to forgive and forget. Forget everything bad and move on. And with that, put my walls back...

I'm so sorry. I'm sure that was hard.

Yes, I am in the works...sort of... on building my relationship back up. It's almost like I'm ashamed to talk to him.... Like I almost feel like I should be feeling the way I do instead of asking Him for help...

I so understand that!! These people were giving me a ride and I felt so bad for inconveniencing them and they kept saying how it wasn't big deal. Then there son who later drove me said he had to take shuttles in GA (Where I previously lived) and said that the driver was nice but you could tell...

Wow, I am so sorry for your experiences. Things are much better here and now, which almost makes my PTSD worse. It's like new way of recovering. Now that Im safe more things trigger me. I do agree and wish PTSD was more explainable. I guess that's the bummer about mental issues. Thank you...

Guity again...if I'm going to be like this...might as well make it real bad and confess to my friend my biggest nightmare. Only, she is so thick she thinks I'm talking about a nightmare.

@intrasearching, I've heard a saying that when you wonder what's wrong with you or think there is something wrong with you then there actually isn't. Which I always find somewhat comforting. As for eating, that's kind of funny because I am similar. If I don't eat I feel good about myself and...

@ever1_needs_som1, there really isn't anyone I can trust. And even then, it's just my dad that's the problem and it was because he tried to get off of his anti-depressant. As for the cutting, I never did it, I was just sort of surprised to have the temptation.

Today has been good... I had another nightmare, I narrowly missed being hit by a car, it was all in slow motion and I remember so vividly the fears of death. Apperently my already-dead cousin didn't make it though. I cried so hard in the dream that I think I may have actually cried in my...

Nothing? I wouldn't know, but I am the same way often. I had my perfect plans for suicide, but I wouldn't actually do it. I knew I couldn't, how could I? But I hate myself. The one guy I like doesn't like me back, so how could anyone else? I'm always mad, I don't treat my siblings right... I...

Today/last night hasn't been very good... I've been having nightmares every night, but last night's involved a particular man whom perhaps tomorrow I will explain... anyways, he was chasing me and when he finally caught me and had me cornered he grabbed me and then started saying he wanted me...

@macca, wow, yeah...I think he's back on his meds since today he's been fine... I know he couldn't help it... but it always makes me anxiety shoot. @Amne, I am in the northern hemisphere. So, yes, it is a long time to wait. I've known this girl since I was 11, possibly younger since I think...

Yes, she was very supportive. I just feel guilty for telling her...

Feeling incredibly guilty at the moment... I confessed to a friend that I have PTSD.... Yeah.... The guilt is currently eating away at me...

I decided I should make a thread here so I can express my feelings better and basically have a diary. Tomorrow I'll write out my trauma and problems I've gone through...good practice or when I talk to my best friend. Right now I am pretty upset. My dad is trying-again- to get off of his...

@aj1, wow, that really hit the mark for me too. So much so I had to read the quote to my mom. I think I'll write that one down. @Definitely..maybe, very glad to know I'm not alone! Thank you! :)

I'm so glad I'm not the only one! That does make a log of sense, especially This one really hits home... Thank you all for your replies and for clarifying my guilty feelings!! I think I have both feelings too...the children of alcoholics training... and also the guilt from parents. Whenever...

Okay, I feel like a spammer for posting last night and then again tonight, sorry! Do you guys ever feel guilty, like you've committed a crime, because you opened up? I have an entire life's worth of stuff I keep hidden from everyone. Sometimes, when I feel desperate, I open up. On here I...

I'm in the works of hopefully getting help... so for me that's a big deal. Especially since I've had PTSD for possibly ten years.

Thank you very much! You are very kind!!

Well...sadly my ideas about the confusion spells didn't work... I had my first full-blown one in a month. Not feeling very good now, since they make me very weak and shake. @Definitely..maybe , I've tried that... but I never get anything good out of it. It's better to try to fight in so I don't...