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How r y’all doing? Seeing as it’s New Year’s Eve… fireworks, drunken horde’s… lots of “fun” and very loud noises 😬

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Great idea that I just thought of myself. Seems to be working… it’s only been 12 hours 🤞

My sister is sick & I was going to fly out to her the same day she went into hospital but… I had a major panic attack a few hours b4 flight and had to cancel it. Now it’s 2 weeks later and I’m still trying to get to her. I have a few things to do but that’s not what’s stopping me. I don’t...

Thank you to ALL of u for taking the time to be there for me. You all have ur own issues and lives and yet you stopped, thought about what I wrote and took MORE time to reply. This forum has been helpful beyond words! I just never fully depended on you/this forum for something… until now. I...

U may be right… :) I almost went. I took a shower which is a massive issue for me due to “someone” trying to drown me in bathtub but I did it. Got dressed too. I can’t believe I’m saying this but I’m not going because (unwillingly goddamit) tears keep streaming so it’s impossible to wear...

Update: Im weak. He won. I didn’t go to the small family only engagement party. Actual party is in 4 hours and I currently don’t feel like I can go. shit!T!!!!!

Makes sense. Thanks. I’ll try

A part of me wants to get him to admit to something, no matter how small. And I AM a smoker so I’m scared he can catch me alone outside I have no tools for this type of situation. Since I’ve started having memories return I haven’t had to see any molesters

Update: engagement party is on Thursday. Please help! One thing I really want is to have a line to say to him just in case I’m alone with him. Any ideas?

I I don’t have time to learn all this. The engagement party will be better today and 3 days time

My nephew got engaged. His father (my ex-brother-in-law) was one of my rapists. I’m petrified of him. They had quite a few kids and it was torture seeing him at each wedding. And now the last one, the baby, is engaged. Difference between those times and now: I had not retrieved any of my...

I was in the hospital ER and needed a transvaginal ultrasound. I was more upset than usual bc I’d just gotten over a baaaad flashback. So I had to tell the tech bc tears were already streaming. Told her I have ptsd from childhood stuff related to this. She was VERY SWEET. But she made a...

I DID see her. Asked her a few of above questions but most importantly, in detail, what she tells her supervisor about me. She gave me an example from recently and that one made total sense. I’ve agreed to continue with her because I think (& hope) the good outweighs the possible bad. Thank...

Thanks for all those questions to ask!!! So so helpful 😄

I’ve agreed to see her tomorrow. Any advice? I’m for sure going to ask for clarification re my privacy..,

You may of hit on some of the issue. I think I need more detailed clarity on my privacy. A few months ago I was hospitalized for suicidal ideation (with some planning) & “Opoid addiction”. The decision to go to hospital was made by my therapist, her supervisor, psychiatrist. And then of course...

I’m proud of myself bc I didn’t do it in an immature way like I have in the past. I DIDN’T walk out mid-session. I told T what I was feeling. Unfortunately she didn’t have any magical cure so I don’t think I’ll be going back… And that kills me. Explanation: My T, P-doc AND housing ALL come...

Turned out to be a very strange night. Saw a little bit of the fireworks and was fine because I was with family so that cushioned me but… Later on, I went outside and met some friends who I’ve known almost my whole life. One of the guys started telling me about a certain type of not ur usual...

Thanks guys 🙏🏼

I’m about to leave to watch the fireworks 45 minutes away from home. I’m nervous that I’ll have a bad reaction (flashbacks would be the worst, anxiety or panic attacks) & will have nowhere to go to escape. Should I not go? any advice for grounding techniques so that I can go? What would/are...

I was all set to go to a cousin’s wedding now. I knew about it because my family had spoken about it but I forgot until just now that tonight is my Father’s (a.k.a. One of my childhood sexual abusers) Death anniversary and I’m in “I’m curled up into myself with my body rigid as a rock” mode...

How long were you in for? One flew over the cuckoo‘s nest. Even though it’s “voluntary“ I am concerned though force me to stay longer than I want to

Been hyperventilating past week . Just had session with T & she recommended/suggested I go into hospital for a few days. Suggestions please?

I have suicidal ideation constantly. Every so often it gets more serious but I don’t talk to anyone about that & (obviously) it hasn’t happened. Yesterday I wasn’t doing well & I made a little goodbye video on my phone… just in case. I watched it and… I was shocked. It was like looking at a...