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I am sorry you have to worry about this. It's one of the things I worry about. Not for me, but for the victims of the case. There's so much talk about justice, which is appropriate, but I worry the victims are getting lost in this. No need to appologize. This is a place to speak your feelings...

Thank you all. I read all your advice yesterday. Yeah, I'm not the best at this. Tat is great and I will talk to him. I do try and protect him from some things though. He's got so much to deal with and he is a strangely sensitive person in some ways. I probably could talk to him about the...

I am going to keep this vague because I know how triggering/upsetting animal abuse is to people and I don't want to give away any information that could compromise my privacy. Anyway, I work at a veterinary clinic. It's my job, but like so many in my field it's also a life-long calling...

Emotions aren't fair. (Ok, I'm not good at applying this to myself but we aren't talking about that). Emotions are responses to events and thoughts and provide us with emotion. Being angry or feeling resentment or having other feelings, at the person who died is normal. Yeah, it can feel shitty...

In therapy this week, we hit on this. It hit a huge nerve. What do I *deserve* nothing. Absolutely nothing. What is the opposite of deserving? Debt. Basically I can earn not owing for my existence. I can earn maybe a bit more, as long as I am paying the cost. Maybe. I don't know. Because always...

Mountains. Oh, how I miss mountains. And confiers that catch the clouds they are so tall, and riverss and creeks that are always burbling and shhhing and talking with the wind. Being able to submerge myself in a forest and the variety of habitats that was so easily reachable.

I'm avoiding it as much as possible. At some point, I should probably look into that avoidance more, but nope. Not right now. And I'm irritated that it's so pervasive. It's like Christmas, even if you don't want to take part, you can't avoid it.

Really, the title says it all. I have to think, there's a lot of people being impacted by all the news and talk about the Epstein files. I figured it might be worth starting a thread so people who are struggling with it, can share and feel less alone. As that's the goal, this is not a place to...

A shade of this has risen its ugly head for me. I'm trying to put it into words but I'm muddled. I can give an example though. I once had a bad fall down a set of cement stairs. I did not call out for help as I was falling. Nor when I woke up (not sure I was fully unconscious, but I certainly...

I understand that realizations like that can have a big impact. I experienced some level of abuse most of my life. I know that I went through a time, when I finally accepted how fully my life had been impacted, I felt that I'd always be in some sort of abusive relationship or mentally unwell...

No suggestions. I just wanted to stop by and say I've always appreciated you. (I read more than I post). I read more than I post. Hmm... actually, one question. Have you tried ketamine?

I am glad you made it through your surgery and hospital stay. I'm sorry you had the triggering experience. I hope you keep being able to talk about it. yep. I hate that feeling.

Hi and welcome to the forum. I had similar experiences with my dad. I know how much it can mess you up. I'm sorry you experienced that. My father constantly made comments about my body. Starting when I was a toddler. Yep, I also got that. Of course, the reason I got the jokes, was in large...

All of that sounds really awful and damaging. I am so sorry you experienced that. There's a lot I can relate to. yep. Experienced this many times. Gifts apparently related to love and getting the "Wrong" gift or not giving gifts proved I was selfish. Also, if I got a gift (like for my...

Hello. I am sorry for the experiences that brought you here. I'm also sorry that those that are closest to you don't understand. That is hard. This is a good place. I hope you find it welcoming and continue to post.

Oh yes. I remember the moment when I promised myself I wouldn't get angry. My whole family was yelling at each other. And the thing is, if they'd stopped and listened to each other they would have actually realized they were basically saying the same thing. I was about 8. And yes, I can get...

I don't have much useful to say. I have experienced strong suicidal ideation and had a part that had all the plans. It's a tough place to be in. Please keep talking to each other inside (as much as possible) and reaching out for support. It sounds like a really hard time.

So, I was the younger sibling. Some of what you described, my brother did to me. I always understood, that he was abusing me because of the abuse/etc we lived with. He did apologize to me once. He might have even be sober, after all this time, I don't remember. I do remember the apology was...

One of the things that can help for me in a bad nightmare cycle is when I wake up, I work at changing the narrative of the dreams. So, for example, I just had a nightmare about drowning. For this dream, I can kind of make it like a movie. I create a montage of me learning to swim and all the...

I wonder if for this one, you might add that they should tell you what they are going to do before they do it? The only other thing I can think of, I am not sure how to word. Basically a reminder that just because you were ok with something previously, doesn't mean you will be ok next time...

Yeah, the noise is a huge struggle for me. I did ask a doctor for a med the last time because I knew I'd struggle. The last one, I was also having sciatic issues and having to lay still in the way I needed to also became really painful. No one had really warned me about that. It was really...

I also felt the same as @Sideways and @RainbowSearchParty I really appreciate your post and responses to them. I wish more people were as thoughtful.

I have kind of come to terms with the idea that I am always going to be conflicted when it comes to my family. Currently, I've been no contact with them for a time. And a part of me still feels like that is wrong. I am trying to live with that feeling and just accept it and not dwell on it.

I'm sorry that happened. If that was me I'd be very upset.

I am sorry you are struggling so hard. Small things, can have big triggers attached. And life is sometimes very hard. Sitting with you.