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I often feel completely out of it when it comes to memories. Some I get confused if they are dreams or real, others I know are real but I feel like I am chasing them, always a bit behind. Really hard to know what happened when you spent alot of your time disassociated though.

:') that gave me a chuckle as I have personally experienced this 'surprise' ahahhaha, it is quite the experience :') xD

Thats awesome! May feel totally odd, but its really good that you didn't! Agreeing with the happy dance above!!!

I find this personally really hard, like my worst triggers are normally common things that other people don't even think about and I am having a panic attack in the corner. For example we had a photoshoot at work today. I hate cameras. I mean other people don't get it, it's like fear to the...

Triggers work in strange an misterious ways. That being said, they are actually quite logical. Your brain works by remembering associated events, so as long as the event is important enough for you to remember it then you can be triggered by anything it relates to, that could be the original...

I agree it is definitely better known, but I have seen 5+ therapists and it was only the last one that mentioned PTSD seriously. Even then they seemed reluctant. Just the other day my acupuncturist told me he was surprised I had PTSD so young, all the people he knew who had it were in the army...

I always seem to end up doing this, people decide to go for a 'proper' night out and I am in a pub after work and it sounds like a great idea. I manage to completely forget that drunk me = flashbacks and clubs = panic attacks and anyone hitting on me = flashbacks. I sometimes feel like part of...

I have thought many times that i would like to show what happens behind closed doors, but not just the trauma of the events but how you live with it afterwards, the simple things that become a struggle. I think it would be interesting to write something that shows the ups and downs of life as a...

This so much. I don't think I can expect anything from people but I guess it disappoints me in some way every time someone clearly shows they do not understand. My friends never got it, even for simple traumatic things that it felt safe to tell them. I would tell my best friend something and...

I do all of this in one day lol. I think it is very hard for people around me when I am laughing and joking one minute and panicing and crying the next. Sorry you had such a bad day, but people above are right, you had a bad day but you got through it fine, and you also had a good day which is...

Ah yer that's very common, I had an issue with scaring myself by constantly picking at scabs before I even started cutting.

It's the same as any addiction, it works well to start with and in the end the damage you do you yourself makes the reward look pathetic. Try and figure out what it is that is making this desire occur. Then try and fine a way to cope with that emotion or situation. Also push back, when your...

I am struggling with this at the moment. My parents cannot stand to think of what happened as abuse and yet it was. I struggle to comprehend the fact I was abused pretty much from when I was born. My dad's excuse was he was depressed, my mum was she was dealing with dad who was depressed. I...

I have had EDNOS for nearly 10 years now. Cycling starvation with binge eating and over excercise etc. 5 years ago I started actively trying to recover and it took years but I am much better now. I going more the binge eating route at the moment but not too badly and I think I can cope. I...

Sorry to post again so soon but I posted that and then realised it wasn't true. The smell of vomit triggers me (bulimia smells very specific) as well as the smell of stale smoke. I am sure there I more now I am thinking about it.

Certain deodorant triggers me. Instantly, not cool, thankfully not that many people wear it so it's rarely happens. Strangely enough there are not that many smells I associate with bad things, or I haven't noticed anything besides that deodorant. Odd xD

So happy for you!! Well done!!! :3

I tried to quit my latest set of therapy 2-3 times because of this issue, however each time my therapist pointed out my reasons for leaving were also the reasons why I needed to stay. I guess it's worth thinking about, it's taken me ages to get where I am now, and I think I only got to being...

I have always wondered this, I essentially don't know how to be any different having panic attacks, dissociating and flashbacks have been with me as long as I can remember. But if you are suddenly hit with all this after a specific event sounds like it would be a serious adjustment. Also it...

I have been sexually assaulted by 3 separate people, out of those 3 one I never considered the law getting involved, one I considered but didn't have enough evidence, and the third they could not prove he drugged me so he never even got to court despite the fact I was found by the police hours...

I can't eat chocolate cause of my migraines :( really missed it this year!!!!

I definitely think that without having ever really known what it is like to be stable and also having had alot of strain on us all our lives any further trauma is alot more likely to cause PTSD. Personally I most likely had PTSD for most of my life if I think about it... Odd thought. I guess...

Microwave rice and pick and mix sweets :P with lemonade, I am so healthy LOL.

Thanks for the advice, I think at the moment these kind of things are where my therapy is going. My childhood is one kinda dark mess and it obviously affects how I act now and things I have done. I have been in and out of therapy for 10 years, nearly half my life now, and only in the last few...

I guess that's the thing, n1 I have no way of knowing right now, and I don't want to force it and start making things up. But n2, there are very specific blank spots in my memory. To have something like knowing the rest of the house, but not being able to even place the doorway to my parents...