You let yourself down. But you won't anymore. Because now you are stronger than you you used to be. Now you have made steps towards recovery and steps towards yourself. Keep that in mind. That is progress. That is something that other people don't do. Coming out of the darkness is not easy. But keep looking into the light. Don't look back and don't let yourself get scared. Even if it gets worse it will get better. If you allow yourself to fall into temptation now you will have to start allover. You don't want that, do you? You want progress. Hang on to that progress. Congratulate yourself, reward yourself and hold on. Yes, we all get scared and wish things were easier. Unfortunately they aren't. But the thought that keeps me going is that pain is inevitable. But prolonging it lays within us. If we take a step forward then two backwards, we just make it worse for ourselves. Giving into SH is a huge step backwards. What good does it do? What are the after effects? Do you want those after effects?
