5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Ronin]

1. FFS, I'd really have use for that valium. Or anything else that knocks me out.
2. FFS number two, told my mentee she don't need a /reason/ to live, just live, some week and something ago, so why don't I listen to my own advice?
3. If used as weapons, they aren't words. / B. was real and not returning / (okay what else is cutting through this nonsense.)
4. Let's think of that yesterday Breakfast Guy.
5. TD's tattoo & Wings, times three. / & This is precisely why I don't want to talk about why I'm suicidal. In part because words just broked me and I'm trying to keep the fragments still making sense & meaning something instead of non-medicatable break with reality going deeper.

 

[jaccat]

2 nights without sleep.
Yay insomnia.:meh:
Not going sick off work again.
Just not.
F*cking brain.

 

[Ronin]

1. Waiting it out.
2. Happy for kind & decent people.
3. Missing people.
4. Missing places.
5. Smallest pieces of cute, back to 1).

 

[Crow]

1. I'm incredibly selfish
2. I'm getting to be okay with that
3. I found my legal paperwork that disappeared. Laying in the floor under other papers next to my desk
4. Getting excited about the eclipse coming up later this month. It feels like a grand adventure.
5. I need adventure in my life - if even on a small scale :)

 

[Deleted member 29920]

1. J K Rowling's birthday is as good an excuse as any to watch all the films in one day :p:D Plus it's also Harry's birthday :clown:
2. I didn't get much sleep.....notebook goes on shelf, leftovers go in fridge...not the other way around :bag:
3. Also - colouring :)
4. And some cat naps...
5. 3 minutes on 'defrost' does not equal cooked :rolleyes:

 

[Anrish]

1. Did my bike tour to work - 56 km in the heat...I'm beat. :facepalm::dead:
2. I HAD to buy icecream for my circulation. :p
3. A bit unfocused and dizzy.
4. Much thinking about Ture. He wants me. Does he love me? He doesn't know himself...
5. Unhealthy food!!! ...:oops:

 

[Tinyflame]

I suppose feeling sucidal because of the past is stupid?

 

[Anrish]

@Junebug : Nobody can change the past...but you can live with present and future hugs...? :hug::hug::hug:

 

[Ronin]

1. @Junebug, not stupid. & Requiring care. Serious & needing care. Hell, no matter /what/ brought on the suicidality, it'd never be stupid. If someone's feeling that deep bad? It's mattering to help. (Hugs & Care & Gentle thoughts atcha.)
2. I can't believe I didn't see that pattern.
3. I need more ice.
4. Regret in spades.
5. Some more of Not Going Back on repeat. & Some more of informing people when I seem /this/ calm outwardly I really. really. f*cking need them to snap me out of it.
6. Still not S-son/K-daughter. & What'd he say? Something about some missions are good botched & left past, can you get me another cigar? Fine, not a cigar, so a beer. // FFS self. I don't even miss drinking. I miss people. Habits. Patterns. Having it. Too many f*cking words & more ice needed.

 

[Deleted member 37085]

1. neglecting part. body part hurting and not attending to this:inpain::banghead:
2. troubling sleep issues:wtf:
3. learning tons of stuff re irrational thoughts/thinking :wacky:in T:wacky::wacky:
4. letting go means I have to do somethin!????!!!!
5. healthy food can cause weight gain too:nailbiting::cautious::rolleyes::oops::eek:

 

[Deleted member 12723]

@Junebug I agree with @Ronin and @Anrish , sending hugs. Please pm me if you need to vent.

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you for such kindness and words @Anrish @Ronin @Rain .:notworthy::hug::hug::hug:

I just mean it's allowing the back-stuff to win, even if it's faceless, or purposeless. It's hard though to identify a faceless enemy. :(

But yes, present and future. And no @Ronin regret is faceless and not caring for you. :hug::hug::hug: