5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Silver.]

no appetite
trying to be normal
everything is really hard right now
I feel like I am just scraping by
:/

 

[Deleted member 29920]

Thank you @Anrish, @Cashew, @corvidae, @Junebug, @jaccat, @NatBird, @Missycat and @Recovery4Me for the birthday wishes, I had a really good day :happy::hug: s to all of you xoxo

 

[Ronin]

Awesome to hear CJ :tup:

 

[Deleted member 12723]

They are not breaking up, massive relief
I have things sorted out and have a plan for today
No anxiety yet, yay
So glad my grandson has his own phone, daily phone calls now
Getting things done

 

[Anrish]

1. Cillit Bang - The Mechanic :roflmao::hilarious:
2. Teaching ain't that bad.
3. More ice cream. :hungry:
4. Too hot.
5. Cleo gives me words for writing practise, but what the heck is a ...pumpkin cookie?! :alien:

 

[Ronin]

1. Screw everybody, the woods are lovely.
2. Sticks Or Bows, is the question.
3. Planner, you one book I'm not talking to, and phone, you stay out of my way too.
4. Missing her.
5. Still regretting, so screw that one. Martial arts & Life as death won't be it.

 

[Tinyflame]

1. She'll be with you @Cashew . :hug:
2.

what the heck is a ...pumpkin cookie?!

Breakfast? :) :hungry:
3. Wasn't just my 'fault' re: SI at 14. Desperate & couldn't continue with maladaptive coping. Thought I didn't stop a death of very loved one, after all. All those years I felt like a monster. :(
4. I hope I still have good things in my heart. :(
5. The worst times I feel sheer terror.

 

[Tinyflame]

1. I suppose it's feasible I had survivor's guilt too.
2. I feel, 'different'. Sort of like my spaceship landed .. :wideeyed: :rolleyes:

 

[Missycat]

Glad you had a good birthday @C j
@Junebug - you have a good heart :hug:
Teas cooking, i wonder what we are having? :p
My hair needs cutting
Must contact my hairdresser to sort appointment

 

[Tinyflame]

1. Thank you @Missycat . But I hurt others, too. :(
2. Late sept then oct, were x2 SI attempts at 14. Followed other happenings I remember but can't say.
3. Thank you for letting me say it. (Yuck. :( )
4. :hug:

 

[Tinyflame]

1. You know, I know we're 'supposed' to have some degree of 'self-compassion' or something, for stuff like that, but that just makes me feel like an as*hole. :( Thank God the second time esp didn't work, because that would have been horriffic for my mom. (And she was grieving, to boot. :( ) Like I said, what an as*hole. :(
2. I suppose too, suicide is an evil thing, really. The action. :(
3. I suppose 'murdering myself' , gross as the words are, would have made sense under the circumstances, too, however.
4. The stuff I write, gheesh. :rolleyes:
5. I don't like to even kill bugs. I apologize to God first :( (seriously). (And I don't even like most bugs).

 

[Tinyflame]

1. I guess that's the basis for my self-hatred/ self-rejection.