5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Lionheart]

I coughed really hard and strained a muscle above my hip and below my ribs that is stabbing me with pain. I think I may need to see a doctor.

I don't know..., I think I can handle it if it doesn't get any worse.

I am thinking about adding several house plants to my living space. I like succulents, tropical plants etc.

I think that I am very sensitive to my environment.

I think I turned out to be a good man despite a lot of trauma, adversity, challenges etc.

 

[ladee]

I think I really like @Lionheart777 's comment about turning out to be a good man.. made my heart feel all squishy !!!

I think i have taken this 'retirement' thing to a level of pure selfishness.. tho I like to think of it as self indulgence.. something I have never had the luxury to do...No one telling me what to do and when....

I think I grow to hate a certain cultures music more every day.... If only they wouldn't play it so loud it makes my windows rattle... and the selfishness of thinking they are the only ones in the park...

I think until the first of the month , I am going to be edgy until I get some money in my hand...

I think my anxiety is presenting with being noise sensitive and a heightened startle response.... have I said lately how much I hate PTSD???

 

[Recovery4Me]

1. I watched a man blow his yard clean by creating a dust storm:dead: 15 feet high and several feet wide which included the leaves and dirt as he pumped them in the street.

2. I couldn't help but giggle looking at one of our neighbors' car then freshly covered in blower dirt and wondered what is wrong with 'normies'?

3. I think tee-shirts bearing the words 'entitlement issues' should be mandated as civic punishment.

4. Our wild turkeys have little ones parading down our yard. Our adult turkeys are the size of flamingos.

5. I have really enjoyed retirement which allows me to game for hours.:hug:

 

[Chiqui]

Sleepy...
I have tomorrow an appoiment with my GP. The fingers of my right hand keep peeling. Must be a reaction of some metal of the mobil.
I have done already the shopping for the week
I am already feed up of this heat

 

[Tinyflame]

@Lionheart777 yes you are good , and hope the pain is manageable. :( :hug:

Oh @Recovery4Me so many of those are :roflmao: . :hug::hug::hug:

1. Holy smokes do I need sleep. I'm not using that benadryl, it leaves me feeling stoned all day. Not worth it for 6 hours compared to 4 or 4:30.
2. I suppose I should measure (some) progress in small ways I've made?
3. I'm not sure how to think of 'improving' and no purpose yet.
4. Hope to get a better routine and accomplish more. Getting the dog a long walk every day will reduce my sister's anger. I miss having a dog in that they're a one-person-primary-focus-breed, though they love and protect everyone. Also the more $ I can make would be better. I wish I could sell off much, too, since I'd prefer it.
5. I don't feel that great, well actually lousy. That is a small worry because of potential implications, but not a large worry, the large worries probably are contributing.
(6.) I am relieved if it will become possible to live my life as I am or my nature is, without being entirely ashamed of it or inviting abuse.

 

[jaccat]

I'm a little disappointed that my mood has dropped so far in three days. Not that it's bad, but it was really good last week.

Taking solace in the garden- both mallows are in flower. They're among my favourite plants.

I've just found an answerphone message from my boss from 3 days ago. Weird he hasn't mentioned it. I'm not bringing it up though, I haven't done what he asked.

Can't decide if I'm starving hungry or unwell. That's been going on for days.

Why does my house smell of melted candle wax?

 

[Muttly]

1. I seem to be rather grumpy. Of course, I am sleep deprived and have pushed myself very hard the last few days so that might be part of it.
2. Yay, it's going to be cooler today. Hm... it almost looks like it could rain/thunder shower, in which case I need to move all that stuff in. Once I head out and do the dog thing I'm going to make sure and enjoy the dogs and nature and the nice weather.
3. What I really want to do is nap. I guess I'm really tired. Oh and sick, although that seems better than yesterday.
4. I am not sure why that comment bothered me so much, unless it's the tiredness thing.
5. It's been one year that I've been dating the bf. I'm actually not that excited/happy. Sigh. I need to think on that. Although... maybe if we weren't both so busy and had some time to spend together. Maybe my sentiments are shifting some since the trip, but I still am grateful to have had the past year and whatever our future will be

 

[Tinyflame]

1. Ohoh, it occurred to me I hope I didn't offend someone with my comments! :eek: :cry: :sorry:
2. Also, even in the name of taking myself out and 'doing the world a favour' , I am the author of my own misery with my thoughts.
3. Went to bed, then my phone - got extra shift. Ultimately yay, even if exhausted.

 

[intothelight]

I need to make a call but I don't trust myself. In robot mode, but it is all under the surface.

Cope by busy, laundry going, dinner prepped, dogs fed and walked, oven cleaner in, and getting ready to go to the shop. Need to constantly move and do.

Bad things are suppose to come in three's not four's, five's, six's.............

Is this station conducting a test? How much crap can you pile on someone year after year before they just give up?

Having a hard time finding purpose and meaning when it gets so random and I cannot find a "reason". Intellectually I know that when people lose a spouse they can have cancer appear due to a weakened immune system. But three weeks after a death? Really? Emotional overload so robot mode.

 

[Ronin]

1. Yup. Lies. And I got proof, in writing, even.
2. Not that it matters, but sanity restoring.
3. Behind on so many communications.
4. But not on eating, at least.
5. More sleep. Fetch words later.

 

[Chiqui]

Totally unfriendly in the morning time. Decided to let the work/family phone calls/msgs for the afternoons :eek:
The quetiapina...its being of any help?? My mood is better and small things seems do not hurt as much as before. It seems like...also now I am very good on ignoring/avoiding feelings...so I really can't tell for sure...
I look so charming and resolutive some times that some people don't believe I suffer from ptsd. I don't either, sometimes, when I am feeling well...
Is this the reason why I feel so guilty sometimes when I think I am a faker and all this stuff is ready make by me in order to avoid complex life situations/people???:oops:
Ought...I better leave the mobil and do the washing :unsure:

 

[Ironlady]

Some people might as well be venomous snakes with heads made of delicate flowers.

Don't talk to me about your faith. Please just don't.

This idea of belonging always feels like a warped pot lid that doesn't fit.

words, colors and sounds are overworked and muddy.