Uhhhhh Yuh....I got a "list"....it is not written however. But say the word(s) or write the word(s) and one sets a match to a short fuse soaked in gasoline. My reaction is guaranteed, how the reaction will manifest....may vary greatly.
As the list is unwritten, no one really knows what those words may be, other than myself. Because I see my self as volatile, I often see others around me walking as if on egg shells....careful not to poke the sleeping bear. Well, dayum. This makes me feel like a turd in the punch bowl. To compose a list of special words they can not use, or if they use them they should employ no small degree of caution....well, I don't know. I think I would feel a bit self absorbed censoring what can and can not be said around me. Am I that special?
These words evoke certain, unmistakable reactions. My therapist (The Trauma Lady) likes to occasionally "push me". Consistently, I resist and I "Push Back", which often surprises me as well as The Trauma Lady. I can't speak for her, but I know that when I instinctively "Push Back"....there is a eerie sense of accomplishment, a perverse sense of pride. The genesis of these moments typically are centered around those special word(s).
Also, as was mentioned in regard to the "color coding" of special words. This brings up a good point. The words, although always pertinent....they often vary in degree of severity. Meaning, sometimes a word will simply upset me. Later, under different circumstances, that same word may evoke a RAGE. So, is it the "word"...simply the "word" or is it more like the importance given to the word(s) at any given time?
I am currently in a twist over use of a word or rather, phrases. My immediate response is one of contempt, and I am bristling with antagonism....Yet, the phrases were not written with the intent of sending me over the edge. They are simply words.....However, the importance I have given the phrase, such a diabolical meaning...I am reacting/responding accordingly. Much to my chagrin, the phrase was written with the intent of helping and my contemptuous reaction to the simple phrase may well deny me from seeing what may prove to be helpful.
I will enjoy giving this much more thought, as words are crucial in communication, thus furthering understanding...Whether I list these words or not, I think it will serve me well to be at least mindful of the word(s) and evaluate the meaning I have attached to these word(s). Just because I have ascribed a meaning to these word(s), does not mean that I am accurate in my association from word(s) to their actual, intended usage. I wish you....
Much Peace
Woof
