cherryblossom
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After taking an OD in May, which has stopped me working temporarily, I finally went out with mates yesterday. It was a great afternoon/evening. I enjoyed myself and felt reasonably relaxed the whole time. We larked about and took silly photo's, laughed a lot and had fun. It was a beer festival, so there were lots of people about, but not so crowded that I had to run!
I feel a bit overloaded and stessed today, but I feel very proud of my acheivement (however small it may seem to others)
I also did one of things that I avoid even on my better days. I met friends at a pub. Normally, the only way I'll go out is if friends meet me before we go to the pub, or outside the pub. But most often I rely on someone to pick me up, so I don't have to enter a venue/pub/restaurant on my own. But yesterday, I did this on my own. My friends were already out. I got a taxi, and walked in on my own. Nothing bad happened! lol. I did it!
But one of the best feeling was just now, when my friend text me today, to tell me how she was so proud of me yesterday. How she praised me and acknowledged how hard it must have been for me, but she was proud of me for going and enjoyed my company.
Like I said, I feel pretty stressed today, and tears keep flowing, but I think they are happy tears. Tears of relief, that I finally managed to do something positive, and enjoy myself.
I feel a bit overloaded and stessed today, but I feel very proud of my acheivement (however small it may seem to others)
I also did one of things that I avoid even on my better days. I met friends at a pub. Normally, the only way I'll go out is if friends meet me before we go to the pub, or outside the pub. But most often I rely on someone to pick me up, so I don't have to enter a venue/pub/restaurant on my own. But yesterday, I did this on my own. My friends were already out. I got a taxi, and walked in on my own. Nothing bad happened! lol. I did it!
But one of the best feeling was just now, when my friend text me today, to tell me how she was so proud of me yesterday. How she praised me and acknowledged how hard it must have been for me, but she was proud of me for going and enjoyed my company.
Like I said, I feel pretty stressed today, and tears keep flowing, but I think they are happy tears. Tears of relief, that I finally managed to do something positive, and enjoy myself.
