Aalegends Wife Outed Him Today In Font Of My Whole Family

[Legend]

I really am sick today, have had a bad past two weeks...............dreams no sleep schaking very bad and hyper alert sounds smels flashes of light ETC> I have kept this down where was not much of a problem for years....................well thats over I guess i am really now am in trouble anb dont where to start i know what i have and have known for years just never went to see a doc about it.....PTSD aint no joke and my little bit of hell is starting to affect my family in a bad way. I am resposable for this and I do placn to seek help........i just wish things hadedt went down like the did....I already have a problem with going out and need certain thingd to be inplace like the correct angle to set at a resturant uo against a wall.......I even sit funny in Church..........................in my mind I must be able te see the whole room the exits. This story has been told a 1000000 times and we eather get better or we dont..............right fellas?:cool:

 

[Zipperhead]

Evening legend. Time to go get looked at and start healing. Where did you serve?

 

[sunviper]

Don't wait Zipperhead is right. Were do you live? The longer you wait the more time you are wasting. Things do not get better on there own. I went through hell before I did anything about it. I almost got a devorce and killed myself by taking drugs. I went through 2 drug treatment facilities in a row before the VA would put me through the ringer at the National Center For PTSD, at Menlo Park, CA, it is part of the Palo Alto, VA hospital. I was a inpatient there for 72 days. My wife told me not to come home until I completed the program. It did pay off though I ended up 100% service connected and 100% disabled through the VA and Social Security. I am unemployable now and retired. If you stick with it good things can happen. It did help me to find my triggers and learn about what the hell was happening to me.

 

[JarHed]

Hey Legend

Welcome. You're right, the story seems to be the same, just the names change. There's good and bad news. Bad first, right now you're in a suck ass place and have a load of shit to deal with. Good news, things can get better. You do have to get out there and get the help. VA's got some good programs for PTSD. It's work but well worth the time and effort. Life can get better. I've said it before but, I've been right where you are now. It can change, go make it happen my friend.

JarHed

 

[Sarg]

And to add...if you have a Vet Center locally, go there as well. The programs are a little more laid back and you're dealing with Veterans. Made some good brothers at my Vet Center and right now a "been there..." brother to talk to will really help you shake some of it off.

Right now is a bad time for you, a dangerous time, so I would get up and do it tomorrow. If you can't get right in to see a VA doc, check the Vet Center and as a last resort go to the VFW or Legion, they might have contacts that can get you in some sort of help.

And keep checking in here, I'm probably here most of the time.

Sarg

 

[StonePony]

I really am sick today, have had a bad past two weeks...............dreams no sleep schaking very bad and hyper alert sounds smels flashes of light ETC> I have kept this down where was not much of a problem for years....................well thats over I guess i am really now am in trouble anb dont where to start i know what i have and have known for years just never went to see a doc about it.....PTSD aint no joke and my little bit of hell is starting to affect my family in a bad way. I am resposable for this and I do placn to seek help........i just wish things hadedt went down like the did....I already have a problem with going out and need certain thingd to be inplace like the correct angle to set at a resturant uo against a wall.......I even sit funny in Church..........................in my mind I must be able te see the whole room the exits. This story has been told a 1000000 times and we eather get better or we dont..............right fellas?:cool:

You do know where to start. Just by writing what you wrote, you started, now you must continue on. Talk to your loved ones and explain as best you can and are able, what you are going through. You might find they will be supportive. I know what you mean about restaurants and exits and such. It's survival mode. I feel the same way and probably always will, but knowing why I feel that way helps. Getting the help of a professional would probably help. There are no magic pills or cures to make it all go away. It's part of our brains, put there by military indoctrination and going through a hell of a war, and then being rejected when we came home. For forty years I never mentioned Vietnam or that I was there except to my wife because she could see the physical scars from wounds, but we never talked about it. I put it out of my mind, or so I thought, but I was never able to get really close to my wife or anyone else after Veitnam. Unfortunately my marriage failed. Finally it all hit me. Luckily I found a great psychiatrist who never had a patient with PTSD. We discovered it together and learned from each other. I could tell him things that I could never talk about to anyone. If you do get professional help, I would recommend a psychiatrist not a psychologist. The only medication I take is an occasional Vallium when I feel a rage coming on or have bad dreams, and that happens less and less all the time. I hope you will be able to learn to live with PTSD and control it and not let it control you.