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I received my nhs medical notes this week. I requested these back in and it was a easy enough process. If you have under 20 A4 pages you are charged just £10, but anymore than this is a £50 charge. It was quite interesting to read through the notes as it is clear so she that they psychologist definitely knew me well. The notes contained letters from Psychologist to Psychiatrists, update from Psychologist to my GP. The records also contained all handout that were given, photocopies of any activities we completed together in session and a weekly treatment summary.
I have been quite frustrated with my progress in dealing with my PTSD and this is evident in the notes to. I found the Exposure therapy very difficult and this was stopped due to the levels of my distress.
I know myself that my personality at times is probably hindering my recovering, as I am stubborn, determined, perfectionist and very critical of myself. This was picked up quite clearly by the psychologist and she mentioned that are times I can be quite quick to give up on techniques if I dont see progress straight away. This is something that I know that I need to work on as lots of repetition and consistency in strategies is required.
The psychologist also queries whether I have the features of type 2 or complex trauma as opposed to type 1 - which is what I was originally referred for. This is something that I will speak to my new psychologist about, I would agree that being stuck in a unsafe environment for 4 months, having to walk past the site of the attack everyday and being harassed by the police could have resulted in me using re-traumatized.
I have found the sessions over the past year very difficult and can become very frightened and distracted by noises around me. I attend sessions first thing in the morning (7:30am), which is relatively quite, although I am still distracted by noise, footsteps and rattling of doors. I am very unsettled and don't feel safe and I am very hypervigilant and show disrupted concentration. I find the hypervigilance very upsetting as I am on guard all day. This is particularly difficult during exposure therapy or EMDR as I get so frightened. Possible dissociative states were mentioned during the Exposure therapy, which is something that I wasn't aware of. I plan to ask for advice both about the hypervigilance and dissociation.
My strong thoughts were also mentioned, which I know is a major difficulty. I am very negative on myself and find defusion techniques difficult because my thoughts are strongly fused.
From the notes I can see that I have made some progress although maybe not as fast as I would like. I can also see that I have a variety of difficulties and at times my own perceptions, thoughts and personality is holding me back which is also hard to accept.
So lots to ask my new psychologist about
I have been quite frustrated with my progress in dealing with my PTSD and this is evident in the notes to. I found the Exposure therapy very difficult and this was stopped due to the levels of my distress.
I know myself that my personality at times is probably hindering my recovering, as I am stubborn, determined, perfectionist and very critical of myself. This was picked up quite clearly by the psychologist and she mentioned that are times I can be quite quick to give up on techniques if I dont see progress straight away. This is something that I know that I need to work on as lots of repetition and consistency in strategies is required.
The psychologist also queries whether I have the features of type 2 or complex trauma as opposed to type 1 - which is what I was originally referred for. This is something that I will speak to my new psychologist about, I would agree that being stuck in a unsafe environment for 4 months, having to walk past the site of the attack everyday and being harassed by the police could have resulted in me using re-traumatized.
I have found the sessions over the past year very difficult and can become very frightened and distracted by noises around me. I attend sessions first thing in the morning (7:30am), which is relatively quite, although I am still distracted by noise, footsteps and rattling of doors. I am very unsettled and don't feel safe and I am very hypervigilant and show disrupted concentration. I find the hypervigilance very upsetting as I am on guard all day. This is particularly difficult during exposure therapy or EMDR as I get so frightened. Possible dissociative states were mentioned during the Exposure therapy, which is something that I wasn't aware of. I plan to ask for advice both about the hypervigilance and dissociation.
My strong thoughts were also mentioned, which I know is a major difficulty. I am very negative on myself and find defusion techniques difficult because my thoughts are strongly fused.
From the notes I can see that I have made some progress although maybe not as fast as I would like. I can also see that I have a variety of difficulties and at times my own perceptions, thoughts and personality is holding me back which is also hard to accept.
So lots to ask my new psychologist about
