It's what I like about tracking. Per meal? getting nutrition balanced? no not good. Tracking over the day - much better picture. Because over a day I eat OK. Per meal - can be messed up. Sometimes I crave something so that what I eat. Plus with Addison's disease I have huge salt cravings at times...I have been eating or not eating and just trying to get on with it.
I hate thinking about it though. I hate feeling that I need to be accountable. I hate noticing how rubbish I am with food and how ridiculous it feels.
I am a grown ass woman and could do with getting a grip.
I sincerely appreciate you reaching out for help because as much as you don't want to eat, you would really benefit from someone checking up on you. Today all I ate was an oatmeal energy ball I make to stuff in my mouth so I don't get weak, but I'm getting that fatigue I know you are familiar with, so I'll pop another in! (they are the size of donut holes, literally one mouth full) How are you about drinking your food, such as smoothies and meal replacement drinks? Sometimes I just don't want to chew!Forgive me. I am bad at using this site.
Writing this post feels scary and painful.
I am struggling with eating/not eating.
I have finally explained to T how disordered my relationship with food is. I will go days without eating unless someone physically puts food in front of me.
I don’t think I know what it feels like to be hungry. Deep down there’s also the feeling that I don’t deserve food and withholding it is a suitable punishment.
In my diary a couple of weeks ago someone mentioned an accountability partner to help make better choices.
The dr has been giving me a whole bunch of pills for years for my appalling B and D vitamin and iron levels (like they are basically non existent), and I keep throwing them away because I don’t eat and then don’t take them.
So I kind of need some help to check in with food. The what did you last eat thread is great but I just beat myself up when I see what everyone else is eating.
I think I need a place to check in to simply say I’ve eaten. Is that ok?
Please can people not talk about actual types of food. If you want to talk about meals there’s another thread that covers that.