Am I The Only One Who....

[UnKnown-Self]

@ladee I do prefer to be alone but question my motives for wanting it.

 

[ladee]

@Alice.in.Wonderland, if you are questioning it, is it because you are very hard on yourself and question all choices you make?? Just curious, no judgement... I like the quite of my personal space. I like being able to do what I want, when I want, when ever I want. For me, I had been someone's child, sister, a mother, a wife, and a friend... so after my last divorce... I said MY TURN !!! Be easy on yourself... you have to decide if you are in good company while alone... that is a good indicator... sending you hugs to stop calling yourself names !!!!

 

[UnKnown-Self]

@ladee if I could like that reply more than once or with an exclamation point I would. I do like it being My Turn... I'm just not there until I get this monkey of hubby's estate off my back.

 

[ladee]

@Alice.in.Wonderland, then start making plans if you can... what I do or don't do from here to the end of my life, is all up to me... not saying I don't take my kids and grandkids into consideration... just that I have been the "go to person", even at my craziest , now they all know , like I said, it's my turn.... love them all dearly, but living my life for me now....and you can too !!! See ya at the old folks home and we'll swap stories of our adventures !!

 

[UnKnown-Self]

@ladee
You are right it is My Time. I'm not just agreeing to your common sense words. It's something I feel deep in my bones. It has its moments of feeling excited but scary too. We never know what life has waiting around the corner. :hug:

 

[UnKnown-Self]

Am I the only one who tells myself, don't be a sarcastic bitch, do you hear me self? Do Not be a sarcastic bitch...

Then turn around and be a sarcastic bitch *sighs*

I'm a work in progress on a slippery slope.

 

[UnKnown-Self]

Am I the only one ecstatic its f*cking Friday and the work day is almost done because it is beautiful out!

 

[Ronin]

I didn't know Ninjas whispered, especially in the dark

How /else/ do you pass messages when everybody's blinder than frickin' bats and it's unreliable?
:hilarious::sneaky:

I just scared the hell out of myself :chicken:

I do that too, all the time.
Even scarier with reflective surfaces nearby.
If I wasn't busy watching everybody else with their help I'd just plain run because Do Not Want.

(Thanks for all the laughs as reading your thoughts and teases. :inlove:)

 

[UnKnown-Self]

How /else/ do you pass messages when everybody's blinder than frickin' bats and it's unreliable?
:hilario...

You stick to that story but I KNOW. All those creaks and squeaks along with the taps and rustling. People will say, " it's just the house settling, the wind or a stray cat outside" they can believe that bullshit if they want to. I know, it's the ninjas passing secret messages. Don't worry, the ninja secret is safe with me. I won't tell anyone.., we know even if I did, which I won't of course, they'd just laugh hahaha and think, Alice has been at another tea party.
I'm glad I make you smile with my goofy assed shit. This forum sees the real me. People in real life don't get my humor or understand when I'm laughing, broken hearted crying and cursing like a sailor all at the same time.
Here, it's yeah, me too. Here, it's home.

 

[UnKnown-Self]

@ladee who asked me "if you are questioning it, is it because you are very hard on yourself and question all choices you make?"
You reminded of a poem I wrote many, many years ago. I don't recall the whole thing but this line popped right into my head:
Choices, choices, choices
There is no choice for me
When I'm the one who makes the choice
Expect catastrophe ...

A work in progress on a slippery slope my friend.

 

[UnKnown-Self]

Am I the only one who sometimes misses certain people even when you know they are unhealthy and toxic to be around because you also had some fun times?

 

[Ronin]

who sometimes misses certain people even when you know they are unhealthy and toxic

So very often.
My dating & former families life wouldn't be such a mess if I didn't.