Am I Weak If I Take The Pill

[James B.]

Glad you are feeling better. Memories are tough. Good luck with everything.

 

[anni]

Memories still pop up after 20 years, unwanted. I guess the head must want them dealt with somehow. I think everyone ends up knowing how best to process things for their own peace in the end. I hope you're able to have at least some of that peace. We'll be here 'whenever'.
Anni

 

[Nighthawk]

Well here we go again another increase in meds. Dr. strongly suggested I go see a trauma specialist who does CBT. So a hunting for a new DR I will go. Oh the joy of this nonsense. I am just plain old tiered.

Nighthawlk

 

[Daisy_May]

Good luck Nighthawlk.

I have sworn off all psycho-meds, and my new doc agrees. She has prescribed me a progesterin-only birth control pill and told me to deal with the rest with my T. Which I happily obliged--I have tried IT ALL!! All classes and shapes and colours of pyscho drugs, and I am allgeric to half of them and incredibly sensitive, they make me throw up, have migraines, lose my vision, lose my memory, not be able to walk, tremors, diahrreha, suicidal thoughts/actions, insomnia, mania, severe depression, 'mind zaps', mini seizures, etc etc etc. SCREW IT!!!!!!!!!

I have dealt with anxiety and 'zoning out' and losing time my entire life, those pills are for the birds. Best of luck to you, I hope you find a good CBT T, or try EMDR or even pyschotheraphy (my miracle drug) and feel better.

 

[anni]

Oh my, so one more thing to do? it's nice to have the doc suggest this for you, but could he not also suggest who he thinks would be a good fit? I heard you on the tired part! It takes an awful lot of energy just to sort of jolly yourself into each day and whatever it might hold. One more thing to do feels exhausting, at least to me.

Not feeling as strong as you'd like at the moment, it might be an idea to investigate side effects of the new med for yoursefl, just for general information's sake. I'm not saying there would be anything bad, but anything which feels different or new can be upsetting, and would not be if you knew where it was coming from, I don't think.

I hope it's all helpful, so you're not so tired!

 

[Sammy]

It took a fair amount of time to convince me to take meds. Then, the first dosage made me manic (fun for a couple of days but definitely not rational!). Then, the doc tried to add another med and I was crying unstoppably. Because I was dealing with some nastiness, it took a while for me to figure out it was the meds pushing me over the edge! That was horrid. It has taken a lot of time to find a good balance of meds, the diagnosis of other physical ailments that can cause exhaustion and depression as well as a good therapist. Don't give up. Since healing happens is such different ways for each person, keep fighting for yourself and don't give up. You are worth it.

 

[Nighthawk]

Well after all of that I decided to go med free.I have been weaning myself of the Zoloft for 2 weeks. I am proud to say I am 3 days not so strong and sore all over med free and holding on. I hope I chose the right path and that the insanity does not start again.
I am not so sure my Dr. will be so proud of me but at this point I don't care.. Or should I say the truth is I felt hurt by the DR. So I quit the meds so that I could quit him.

Heres to being med free !
NH

 

[intothelight]

Congratulations NH. I know this means a lot to you.

ITL

 

[anni]

Meds are such a personal choice in the end. You've been in the healing process long enough to know what works for you. It's nice to hear you're feeling strong enough to make these choices for yourself and your well-being, and as ITL said, congratulations,

Anni

 

[Nighthawk]

Thank you for your support ITL and Anni. :)

 

[anni]

I just remember when you sounded so fragile, I know it was tough for you to speak to us, much less add a smiley face, Nighthawlk. I was there once, years ago. I actually can USE this new format here, and will attempt a smiley, too, since it really is one for the techno-ninnies out here. ( Not you, me. ) :) HA! Worked!

 

[Deleted member 6617]

Good for you Nighthawk! I envy your courage and strength! Stay strong!:)