I was going to take a break from posting my dreams here, but I had a shocking nightmare last night.
I sometimes have woken up with the bad feeling but not remembered the dream.
In day to day life I have the bad feeling. The bad feeling is a phrase I use to describe this mesh of emotions feelings thoughts, and this is the only way I can think to describe.
I often get the bad feeling during therapy and almost always after it.
So in the dream I had the bad feeling. I was trying to see my therapist which I did but then she had other clients. I had ran out of time, but my bad feeling hadn't. I was panicked as I knew if I got into the bad feeling it would be too powerful for me.
Except in my dream this therapy session was in a house. It was multifaceted with lots of different small odd rooms leading off one big room. It was brand new, exceptionally clean, white, stark but really a bit clinical. In each little room was like a white ladder or clothes airer to hang your wet clothes on.
My whole dream is the bad feeling. It's inescapable. I cry & scream and then my husband holds me but my pain is too much and he can't hold me. I'm moving around from room to room.
I bump into my therapist again who is still busy but can't believe the pain is still going on, she tells me it's now 7pm.
I try to distract myself by wondering from room to room. I find a bundle of wet clothes ready to be hung out. So I decide to do that. I see a pair of my favourite red underwear, they are so comfortable and familiar, but then I see the identical pair of underwear except they are in hot pink & this disturbs and has me screaming in pain again.
I wake up, and I really do have pelvic pain. And that horrible bad feeling is with me. Now today I feel quite awful and I have neck pain & a headache.
I sometimes have woken up with the bad feeling but not remembered the dream.
In day to day life I have the bad feeling. The bad feeling is a phrase I use to describe this mesh of emotions feelings thoughts, and this is the only way I can think to describe.
I often get the bad feeling during therapy and almost always after it.
So in the dream I had the bad feeling. I was trying to see my therapist which I did but then she had other clients. I had ran out of time, but my bad feeling hadn't. I was panicked as I knew if I got into the bad feeling it would be too powerful for me.
Except in my dream this therapy session was in a house. It was multifaceted with lots of different small odd rooms leading off one big room. It was brand new, exceptionally clean, white, stark but really a bit clinical. In each little room was like a white ladder or clothes airer to hang your wet clothes on.
My whole dream is the bad feeling. It's inescapable. I cry & scream and then my husband holds me but my pain is too much and he can't hold me. I'm moving around from room to room.
I bump into my therapist again who is still busy but can't believe the pain is still going on, she tells me it's now 7pm.
I try to distract myself by wondering from room to room. I find a bundle of wet clothes ready to be hung out. So I decide to do that. I see a pair of my favourite red underwear, they are so comfortable and familiar, but then I see the identical pair of underwear except they are in hot pink & this disturbs and has me screaming in pain again.
I wake up, and I really do have pelvic pain. And that horrible bad feeling is with me. Now today I feel quite awful and I have neck pain & a headache.