Analyzing Dreams and Uncovering the Subconscious Mind : Analyzing Dreams and Uncovering the Subconsc

[Seeking_Nirvana]

Hi Rachel,

The violence in your dreams is due to the trauma you endured. It’s unfortunate, but you were violated and your psyche has been injured. While you continue processing the grief of what happened to you, and facing your traumas the dreams will calm down. Don’t be afraid of your dreams because they are not real.

Most dreams are symbolic and don’t mean what they are showing you. However, the violence is real because you felt it, but it doesn’t mean your going to kill some one.

Actually killing the abuser in a dream is a good dream because it shows your facing the fears and killing them off. It’s hard to understand this at first but you will see how it works, if you stick with watching your dreams.

I eventually found peace when I was able to kill my attackers instead of them killing me. It doesn’t scare me because it’s a dream and I look at it as a movie while awake. When I have nightmares and wake up from them that is a whole other story, but once I calm down I am able to find the meaning then I am OK, and move on.

Nightmare #2
The strangers are an old way of thinking from your past. Windows represent the ability to see beyond yourself and broaden your horizons. This means your growing spiritually and healing.

These two strangers are you and you’re the one on your knees pointing a gun at your head (in the past when you live at that old apartment) maybe you wanted to end it back then, but because the guns where plastic you didn’t want to really end your life. (Just the pain).

When you loaded the gun you are ready to kill these fears and you do that to a certain extent. Since they were dead, that would mean part of your fear has been dealt with, also with them being alive, this means that part of the fear still haunts you.

So now your walking around feeling alive some days and dead others and as an added annoyance your locking this all up inside of yourself. But the windows show that you’re starting to let it go. This is a nightmare, but it is showing progress in my opinion.

Side note: I had a dream where I shot my son in the head because I thought he was going to shoot me. After I shot him he had a red hole in his head with no bleeding (just like you described, and he was still walking and talking). I told him I was sorry for killing him and I told him I thought he was going to kill me, that’s why I did it. He understood.

This dream really disturbed me because it was my son, and unfortunately I am afraid of him in real life (however, it’s not his fault, it’s my own irrational fears)

We have similar dream symbols. Interesting!

Take care
Tammy

 

[Seeking_Nirvana]

If I missed anyone let me know. Also, if anyone needs clarification on how I came to a conclusion let me know or if the interpretation doesn't resonate with you I can look at it again.

I wish you all sweet dreams
Tammy

 

[Lucky Laser]

Alright, here is last nights (when I start writing dreams down in my dream journal, I start remembering dreams more often but lately they haven't been fun dreams...):

First I walk into a house that I've never seen before, but it is a friend's house. There is a piano and my husband is sitting at it. He turns to me and tells me that he is "turned on" from reading about young cartoon girls (aggggleggle very creepy). This really bothers me and triggers me in the dream so I start wanting to ask "why, why, why?" however someone calls us into another room and I cannot ask him anything. I am left hanging and very angry (I should mention a large part of my trauma was never getting to ask the simple "why?"). I sit down at a large table and because there are non-family around I have to act like everything is OK in my mind.

In the next scene I am back in my Grandma's basement (where I used to live) and trying to chat online with a friend. I desperately want to tell him something, but every word I type comes out as either gibberish or another word entirely. For example I want to type "please help me" but instead the chat client produces "flingle dingle."

Next scene, I am again in an unfamiliar house and on the phone with relatives in Pennsylvania. I want to ask them for help too, but I cannot, and we talk about other things. The words are in my head, but whenever I try to speak them, another topic comes out. Then the phone starts acting up similarly to the chat client and when I try to call someone else, it just dials the wrong numbers.

I walk upstairs in this unfamiliar house and suddenly there is a very bad young adult man in the house. He comes upstairs and says he is going to kill me. He has a knife (I got the sense that this imagery came out of some of the posts I was reading here last night). I am terrified and don't know what to do. The Dad of the family who lives in the house I am in comes upstairs and fights with the perpetrator. The perpetrator has the knife to the Dad's neck and I run downstairs to call 911. I beg the phone to please work (it does) and as quietly yet desperately as I can, I tell the cops what is happening and give them the address.

Suddenly, the Dad and the perpetrator come downstairs as if nothing was wrong. The perpetrator says something like "weird, the cops aren't here," and they talk as if everything is normal! Yet I still feel as if something is wrong.

LOL, I have wayyy too many dreams and it is interesting how reading back on them they correlate to things that are happening in my life. Many are a pretty good work of science fiction, some are just plain weird, and there is the occasional really disturbing one.

Now if anyone can explain "sleep paralysis" (realizing within a scary dream that I'm dreaming but unable to wake up) I would be happy because I've heard lots of different answers on that one... neurologist I worked with says its benign and some people just have it. My therapist says its a primitive response to stress.

 

[Seeking_Nirvana]

Hi Lucky Laser,
It used to really bother me when I would have incest or pedophile dreams too, but I realize that it’s just an irrational thought surfacing while I dream or something triggered me.

The reason you have never seen this house before would indicate you have never seen your husband in this way. This is an irrational thought or worry that he is this way or will become this way. Another indication that he is not really like that is because the girls are cartoon, (which is not realistic).

However, I want to point out that this is your dream and only YOU know the answer to this. Sometimes our subconscious will give us an indication about some one’s personality or intentions that we don’t pick up on while awake, and it comes out in our dreams. I have indeed had this happen to me. I had a dream a man that I know molested my son and then me. Come to find out later, he was a pedophile. Just always be aware of these things.

It appears you want to say something to your husband about your irrational thoughts but you know it would "strike a cord" with him. Also, this is related to your trauma like you stated and you want to know why.

Basements generally represent things that are in our subconscious that we are not quite aware of. There is something you need to say (to yourself), but can’t figure out what it is or able to put it into words. Most likely it’s about the irrational thoughts.

Houses represent our psyche and your still feeling uneasy with yourself and your thoughts. It is a STATE of mind your in (Pennsylvania) and your still having trouble figuring out what it is inside of you that you want to say, and how you are feeling about a situation. So it appears your having trouble communicating with others and yourself about what is bothering you because you can’t put your finger (typing) on it yet.

Now you walk up into consciousness and you see the masculine side in you tormenting yourself. There is inner conflict about whether you feel safe or not. The knife up against the wiser masculine side of yourself is being silenced. The throat usually represents the need to speak out or vocalize your feelings/thoughts.

Eventually you are able to speak out in a low whisper, but no one is really hearing you and the inner conflict calms down but you know something is still askew.

You will need to think about what it is you need to talk about. It’s within your reach you just have to really look inside yourself for the answers and they will eventually come to you.

Sleep paralysis is a condition characterized by temporary paralysis of the body shortly after waking up (known as hypnopompic paralysis) or, less often, shortly before falling asleep (known as hypnagogic paralysis).
Physiologically, it is closely related to the paralysis that occurs as a natural part of REM (rapid eye movement) sleep, which is known as REM atonia. Sleep paralysis occurs when the brain awakes from a REM state, but the bodily paralysis persists. This leaves the person fully conscious, but unable to move. In addition, the state may be accompanied by terrifying hallucinations (hypnopompic or hypnagogic) which cause an acute sense of danger. Sleep paralysis is particularly frightening to the individual due to the vividness of such hallucinations. The hallucinatory element to sleep paralysis makes it even more likely that someone will interpret the experience as a dream, since completely fanciful, or dream-like, objects may appear in the room alongside one's normal vision. Some scientists have proposed this condition as a theory for alien abductions and ghostly encounters
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sleep_paralysis

 

[Lucky Laser]

Seeking Nirvana, thank you for giving thought to my dream. Your interpretations are so interesting and make a lot of sense!

Thinking about the first part (the cartoon girls) a little more, I think it is because we watch some Japanese anime, and there are a few that trigger me because they make younger girls look sexy. We had a discussion about that trigger recently so that might be why it came up the way it did.

I think you are very right about not being able to communicate something. This might be related to my therapist... a few times recently he asked me a question and I knew I had a lot of answer but it just wouldn't come out. Not one word. It was so frustrating! And I feel like there are things I can't even figure out for myself yet.

Thanks for the sleep paralysis definition too. :0)
~LL

 

[Seeking_Nirvana]

Hi LL,
Usually we dream of occurrences that have happened within the last 24-48 hours and often with the same symbols. The trauma dreams are old, but there are usually other messages within the trauma dreams too. I have noticed that my dreams have more than one meaning to them. I had a very long dream that seemed to have 10 meanings to it. It was difficult to pick a part and figure it all out.

I think if you sit still and meditate on what it is you need to say it will come to you. One way of doing this is called "Free Association" writing. I don't think there is any info on it but what you would do is find a quiet place and get a pen and some paper. Think of how you are feeling and then just start writing what ever comes into your mind. I did this before and I got two pages worth of writing out. It's amazing what we are capable of doing. Maybe you could try this and see if you find what it is that is confusing you.

Good luck
Tammy

 

[spiritofnow]

I just wanted to say to Seeking Nirvana, 'Blimey girl you have been busy' ;-) You do such a fantastic thing on here. You are giving so much!

Spirit x

 

[linasmom]

Tammy,

Your interpretation of my latest nightmare really made sense to me. I've been thinking about it a lot these last few days.

I do still wonder though about the "police" in the dream, and what they might represent in the context of the interpretation.

It is interesting that you and I share similar dream symbols - I wonder if it has to do with us possibly sharing some life experiences.

Again, thank you so much...you really give new insight into how our minds are processing.

Best,
Rachel

 

[Seeking_Nirvana]

Hi Rachel,

"They weren't dead but everyone (including the police) thought that they were. I saw the police pull up outside through the windows and I started panicking. It was like the people I shot were dead, but I thought they were alive because they were now "walking dead people". They were still talking, but I don't know about what. As they were talking"I kept thinking to myself "they are alive, but I'm going to jail because the police think they are dead"

*** I'll see if I can help you with the police. Sometimes the police represent a false sense of truth because we all know they are human and do bad things. On the flip side they are suppose to be here to serve and protect.

You feel the police (you) are going to continue to convict yourself of things you are not responsible for. The abuse was not your fault, but at times the thought creeps into your mind that it was your fault, and you will be convicted of it even though the evidence is clear that you were abused.

The flip side is maybe at some point you were angry and abused some one? This would be the false sense of truth that police represent. It was done to you and maybe you felt some one has to pay for what happened (go to jail) even if you hurt some one it was because you were hurt. It's human nature to feel the urge to hurt people that hurt us. But it doesn't always mean we will do it and some times we do carry that urge out.

Some dream symbols contradict themselves causing the dream to be very hard to understand. The police are a perfect example of this. The contradiction of the police symbol is the inner conflict inside you, and ambivalence you feel about abuse done to you in waking life and the shooting of the men in the dream.

Hope that make some sense. Sometimes I over look a symbol (like the police) when I do dream interps. If I do this just remind me and I will try to clarify it.

I will check your trauma diary when I get a chance to see what happened to you and find a correlation as to why we have similar dream symbols. I know I dealt with rage for many years and would be in a knock down drag out brawl with some one in a bar at least 2 times a week. Alcohol induced rage is common after some one is raped. I remember you posting something about having rage. That could be the connection but I will have to look at what happened to see if I can figure it out


Peace
Tammy

 

[Lucky Laser]

Okay I'm going to be selfish and ask for one more... what would you say about dreams where you are falling? I've had a few of those lately... there was one in which I was falling through space and wondering if I would ever land on an earth-like planet again and another one where I was in a falling elevator.

In last night's dream I was falling from the sky into an ocean. When I smacked into it I felt my toes break (though it didn't hurt) and I sank into an underwater world and brought to a woman named "Marina." I don't think I liked her much as I found a random exit out of the ocean which led to some kind of massive college cookout and I know a sea monster was involved. I'm curious what you can glean out of that!

 

[Seeking_Nirvana]

LL, I don't think posting dreams all the time is selfish LOL. I'm here to help you and everyone so post every day if you want. I used to post my dreams everyday before I learned how to read them. The best way to learn to read your own dreams is to post them all.

Falling usually means your feeling off balance and out of control. The elevator could be that your feeling closed in.

Being in the universe and falling to earth could be your "want" or “need” to be grounded so you don’t feel off balance anymore.

Water tends to represent emotions. The ocean can mean (1) your mother, (2) all things are connected, or (3) emotions on a large scale.

Your feet and toes represent your standing in life so this would mean your not feeling balanced or grounded so you sank (feeling depressed). The breaking of your toes means you need a break from something and need some recreation.

Marina could be a pun on words. The meaning of a "Marina" - is a port within a sheltered harbor where boats and yachts are kept in the water and where services geared to the needs of recreational boating are found. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Marina

This kind of resembles an ocean scene. Maybe you are feeling sheltered and it's causing you to feel unbalanced and emotional. So getting a break and doing something fun will help this feeling dissipate.

On the flip side maybe you are sheltering someone way too much. This would be a learning experience (college) in that if you are being sheltered too much, so you know you don't want to do this to anyone else.

Everyone needs looking after and nourished (cook out), but too much of anything will create a monster in us all.

Hope this makes sense.
Tammy

 

[Lucky Laser]

Wow, you never cease to amaze me. :0) That dream seemed to me like a huge pile of nothing and you made it make some sense! Thank you!