Angry Again

[Anglesachse]

Lose , lose and then lose again. Geting mighty sick of this.Wagon

There is a nice German saying to sum that right up wagon mate.

"Manchmal verliert mann, und manchmal gewinnen die anderen"

Basicaly means, "some times you loose, and some times the others win"

 

[gibrokedown]

I had this happen too. i had to actually threaten a doctor that if they didn't get me professional help within 5 minutes that i was going to kill every doctor and nurse I saw. i had help in 3 minutes. but it's a struggle and that obviously wasn't the way to go about it. I snapped. as alot of us do trying to deal with a shitty ass system with our shortened tempers. I wake up every day angry, snap out and then level out a bit and start to function a bit better but never even close to normal. and they never listen at the VA. hell, I even went for a kidney infection to the ER behaving and acting normal and was arrested!!!! when i was freaking out i got help, when i was physically sick i got arrested and tossed into a mental hospital. WTF is up with that? one brother who went to my VA got put in jail cuz he was turned away from the VA for help and he killed someone. now he rots like so many of us vets do in a prison cell. forgotten. treated like trash. like a common criminal. I filed with the medical board against the first psychiatrist because she said "go get drugs on the street" and "I am your last hope, no one is ever going to help you again" I also turned her in to the VA etc.. 5 places in all. that is why she had me arrested in the ER. I started telling the police what she said and bam I was the one who was the criminal all of a sudden. those people are crazier than we are by far! and they sure as hell have no comprehension of what it feels like to be dying from having it. I am so bad it is affecting my heart and my brain. it's terrible.
sorry there's that pesky ptsd rambling going on. forgive me if i drove you nuts. hope you found something to help though.

 

[gibrokedown]

they have had me under a microscope ever since my daughter was born. so far she was put in my parents care for a month and once for 2 days. other than that i find ways to keep them out. I know how you feel, I really do and it should be illegal if you haven't been found to harm your kids in any way during an investigation. I've had something like 6 investigations each 6 months long now. never found a damn thing!!! it's like some fascist regime instead of a free country where i served, got injured serverely and want kid protected and taken care of as best as anyone can do and that would be done by me. because I am the only person I am 100% positive won't ever harm her.