Ive tried not to do this with certain major events but this one is still too new. Sorry if I get typos, I'm writing on my phone.
I wasnt feeling entirely well yesterday and it dawned on me that it's been 3 years since I got hurt doing an activity. The thing that really hurts is the people at this place where I got physically injured were some of my favorite people in town. They act so positive and try to teach about "having integrity." But when it boils down to what is real, they were entirely fake.
I was encouraged by the owner to try out a new sport. The room was loud that night and filled with adults and kids that had red belts. The teacher guy showed us how to do a sweep side kick and then left. I was put at the end of the line because I was new and 'honor' said I needed a belt and costume thing. I didnt have a problem with this. I went to do the kick and realized that i was too far from the bag. I looked for the head guy and he wasn't around. 2 teachers ahead on my right were qitjing with other people. It was too loud to shout to them for a question. I didnt make contact with the bag and fell to the floor in pain. I crawled to the back of the line. The other teacher that night told me "Oh yah, you'll throw your knee out if you dont make contact."
Basically, I got hurt about 10 minutes into my beginner trial session, my fiirst attempt at doing it.
I'm a runner. A good pair of the right shoes will prevent injury. If I were coaching someone else, I wouldn't have them run a marathon their first time out.
I needed full acl replacement. I still cant walk rifht becauee I couldnt get to physical therapy when I needed to. (Never had that "family" thing.) My narcissist ex told me to walk up there with my crutches in the snow.
I still have outstanding bills for the surgery. Paid a lot of it, but it trashed my credit score.
The company of people and the head "super positive" coach never contacted me or asked how I was doing. The main gal that works the counter texted me a few times and said he asked how I was. I was checking his reviews on his company and he brightly says he really loves getting bad reviews as it gives him an opportunity to fix shyt. . .
I've never left a review, but I'm interested in knowing how he'd fix his shitty approach about being totally fake.
I really liked these people. I felt kinda abandoned coz you know, it's really "business." I wanted to leave a review about how things really are if you get hurt. They totally didnt even offer to help with bills or anything. My ex told me- this was my fault and I shouldn't have even tried. (I was already at "I shouldn't have tried.")
(Food would have been great. I ordered pizza and soda for a very long time bkz I couldnt get to a store.)
Self injury looks tempting. I havent done that in a long time. Coz there's really nothing I can do about it. People suck. Looking at their cheery garbage they spout in town makes me feel sick. I was curious how they were doing.
I think Hamlet said something that comes to mind. Every time I see people truly behave like asses then smile and act so cheery. Ive been abused by a few folks that act like this. I hadn't tried to reach out or make new connections in years.... Because of shyt like this.
There literally is no justice on this planet. (Unless karma is real - and I used to be Hitler.)
Feels painful. Very sad and angry.
/help
/zero
I wasnt feeling entirely well yesterday and it dawned on me that it's been 3 years since I got hurt doing an activity. The thing that really hurts is the people at this place where I got physically injured were some of my favorite people in town. They act so positive and try to teach about "having integrity." But when it boils down to what is real, they were entirely fake.
I was encouraged by the owner to try out a new sport. The room was loud that night and filled with adults and kids that had red belts. The teacher guy showed us how to do a sweep side kick and then left. I was put at the end of the line because I was new and 'honor' said I needed a belt and costume thing. I didnt have a problem with this. I went to do the kick and realized that i was too far from the bag. I looked for the head guy and he wasn't around. 2 teachers ahead on my right were qitjing with other people. It was too loud to shout to them for a question. I didnt make contact with the bag and fell to the floor in pain. I crawled to the back of the line. The other teacher that night told me "Oh yah, you'll throw your knee out if you dont make contact."
Basically, I got hurt about 10 minutes into my beginner trial session, my fiirst attempt at doing it.
I'm a runner. A good pair of the right shoes will prevent injury. If I were coaching someone else, I wouldn't have them run a marathon their first time out.
I needed full acl replacement. I still cant walk rifht becauee I couldnt get to physical therapy when I needed to. (Never had that "family" thing.) My narcissist ex told me to walk up there with my crutches in the snow.
I still have outstanding bills for the surgery. Paid a lot of it, but it trashed my credit score.
The company of people and the head "super positive" coach never contacted me or asked how I was doing. The main gal that works the counter texted me a few times and said he asked how I was. I was checking his reviews on his company and he brightly says he really loves getting bad reviews as it gives him an opportunity to fix shyt. . .
I've never left a review, but I'm interested in knowing how he'd fix his shitty approach about being totally fake.
I really liked these people. I felt kinda abandoned coz you know, it's really "business." I wanted to leave a review about how things really are if you get hurt. They totally didnt even offer to help with bills or anything. My ex told me- this was my fault and I shouldn't have even tried. (I was already at "I shouldn't have tried.")
(Food would have been great. I ordered pizza and soda for a very long time bkz I couldnt get to a store.)
Self injury looks tempting. I havent done that in a long time. Coz there's really nothing I can do about it. People suck. Looking at their cheery garbage they spout in town makes me feel sick. I was curious how they were doing.
I think Hamlet said something that comes to mind. Every time I see people truly behave like asses then smile and act so cheery. Ive been abused by a few folks that act like this. I hadn't tried to reach out or make new connections in years.... Because of shyt like this.
There literally is no justice on this planet. (Unless karma is real - and I used to be Hitler.)
Feels painful. Very sad and angry.
/help
/zero
