Another Anxiety Attack That Ended Me Up In The Er

[ashdawn8287]

I guess I am struggling with anxiety lately. I have no idea where it is coming from. I know this month is typically hard for me, anniversary to sexual abuse and other good and bad stressors.

They think it is all the medication I am on and want me on xanax, only problem is P does not prescribe it. I sent him an assertive message since this is the second time in 2 days that led me to the hospital.

Ugh I just really HATE this. Yoga and other self care is not working either.

 

[presentjoy]

Sorry anxiety is that bad. :( I can get stress to the point of being in so much pain I'm immobilized by it, no one has ever been able to diagnose it but I've had my share of EKGs and even an inpatient cardiac stay. It's scary to have anxiety so bad you end up in the ER. I hope P comes through.

 

[DMerish]

:cautious: Errrgh! Can you find some soothing music to listen to?

Love and serenity surrounds you Ashdawn.

Breathe - let it come in.

:hug:

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Time for a new doctor? Benzos aren't always the best but sometimes they're the best alternative. My doc gets on my case for not taking them. I know he's right. I have two types of anxiety, physical and mental. I don't care what anyone says, you can't coping- mechanism-away the physical anxiety. (Maybe reduce to a degree, but it's still there and still builds---until I take something.)

I should have taken something last night but didn't and this morning I'm paying for it. I hate it----I have no choice but to take a benzo and pray I can get through the day in one piece.

 

[DharmaGirl]

Can your primary care doc prescribe it? There is no reason to suffer. I meditate and do relaxation exercises and still need benzos. One thing I've been trying is to stop once an hour and do a mini meditation, like a deep breathe, ground and center, and it seems to work really well for me. I still need my Ativan sometimes, but I feel better during the day. Big :hug:, Ashdawn.

 

[ashdawn8287]

Yes my primary use to and then P told me to stay away from it becasue it makes PTSD worse, but I do grounding, yoga, mindfulness, and before I didn't so I DEF need benzos right now. WAiting on my phone to charge and calling my primary doctor.

The ER doctor was NOT happy with P.

 

[ashdawn8287]

My P didnt even see me yesterday when I think he should have. After my first er visit. I don't have the money to continue going to the ER when things like this happen.

 

[ashdawn8287]

Have an appt with my regular doctor on thursday asked if she could send in a refill for xanax, emailed my P (STILL have not heard from him) and called my old psychiatrist he is out of the office today but is going to call me tomorrow. Just took one xanax and I have one xanax left so hopefully this will get me through until i figure this out.

wish me luck.

thank you for the support.

 

[franciemarnie]

I'm so sorry you are having this anxiety. I hate anxiety!!

It makes sense though with the anniversaries.

One good thing - nothing stays the same. It will pass. It's just always a matter of how to get thru it with the least discomfort. Vigorous exercise is always my go-to with anxiety. Anxiety feels sometimes for me like a horse galloping out of control and I have to get on one faster and stronger - my work outs - to lasso the one run amuck and bring him back in speed and direction to the rate I want to travel.

I hope you feel better soon!

 

[ashdawn8287]

thanks franciemarie!!!! I have been doing yoga but it seems I cant concentrate I feel like I need to just go run a mile and get it all out of me! I may do that as soon as the heart stops racing.

I HATE this time of the year I am so weak.

Flyaway said it good to me during a conversation.... it feels like the floor is being ripped from underneath me! I have been spending lots of time outside.

I went to this pretty lake yesterday. It was beautiful and relaxing. I just say by the water and looked out and watched nature. It was nice. But my anxiety is so bad at night time lately after i take my medications.

 

[franciemarnie]

It's worst for me at night too.

I also love to be out in nature. So healing.

If your body wants to run a mile, go for it. That's what brings my racing heart back down. That methodical running beat ironically ends up lowering blood pressure.

Meditation or sitting still doesn't work for me when my heart is on the gallop. My body says move, and it helps to show it I'm no longer immobilized.

But everyone is different.

Can you get out in nature today?

And may I say, you are not weak!!!! Not at all. You are strong. I think your body senses danger due to anniversary. It knows what time of year it is. It doesn't want a repeat.

 

[ashdawn8287]

Thank you that really makes me feel better that I am safe and that it is just past stuff.

Have you ever tried sage/cedar soap? It rinses out imbalances in the body. I just ordered some and got it today and just soaked the soap in the tub with me and I have NEVER felt so clean before.

I am actually outside right now. I live in the country so I am just relaxing in the back yard.

I have a test at the university Thursday and I have to get this under control. I feel good today.

My P did just send in a prescription of Xanax, THANK GOD!

Thank you so much francie.