Tips for constant ongoing low level anxiety attack

[FauxLiz]

@blackemerald1 its another MH/sick day. I woke up at 5am this morning with a headache so bad it was like one of my worst migraines only it wasn't a migraine and I lay there meds taken, ice on my head and neck until my alarm went off and I knew I couldn't go to the office.

Yes I am still adjusting to everything new but I am not doing a good job with any of it. I am the boss actually the CEO and because of my PTSD I encourage all of my employees to recognize and take MH days when needed. But right now I am failing, I can't focus, work is not getting done and I am screwing up projects. So yes it is hard not to think that I went back to work to soon. I accepted this job two weeks after my last hospitalization which was my third in six months. I know that I can put on a good front to other people even to my current T but I am not okay and I don't know how to fix the situation I am in and I don't know how to fix me.

 

[FauxLiz]

I was hopeful yet surprised when I heard back from previous T today. I had reached out to him yesterday morning because I didn't know who else to reach out to, I didn't ask for anything just that I knew it was wrong but I needed to reach out. I can't tell you how much hearing from him helped. He told me to ask current T for a referral which I will probably do and made a couple suggestions as well that I could tell he had done some research on as they are both trauma therapists.

 

[blackemerald1]

So you were hospitalised to help you get your condition under control. It is not a magic bullet nor is it a holiday. It is the last resort for MH's patient's - you know this - so when you were discharged it wasn't because you were then completely ok again. You were well enough to be discharged that's all.

Not doing your job as in employment is obviously worrying you a lot. Is this the main area you are concerned about? What do you think you could do to remedy your anxiety about this? Is there too much work? Is it a bad job? What's going on to tip the scales so heavily against you?

You did not fool anyone when you applied and presented for the job interview. You didn't get the job because you just 'presented well'. You are capable of doing the job and you deserve this job. I see the "I am not worthy" statements you have made...

Really pleased your old T has contacted you. I am glad that has given you a little hope. :)

Sounds like you needed another day off and that is ok too. Take care of yourself today. :hug: