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After two years of braking up with my ex, I had another nightmare last night. I wasn't diagnosed with ptsd but I have nightmares and almost every symptom of ptsd. I just never gotten checked yet.
I just wanted to write this dream down so I remember it. I've had so many dreams about my ex but they went away about 6 months ago, basically once I got married and moved out. But they just came back last night when I had a fight with my husband. I thought I was cured from the nightmares but one fight and I get them back. I'm just journaling so I don't forget the dream. Imight need to see how often I have them and what triggers them so it won't happen again. Anyways....the dream went like this.
Iwas in my apartment and stopped when I saw my ex's ex who he cheated on me with. She looked like a sexier version of avril laven even though she don't look like that for real.
I asked her what she was doing in my house. She smirked at me and said "I have a key duh, I live here."
I was shocked I felt like screaming but I calmly said "I'm married and thats wrong for you to be here, get out of my house now...."
I had a feeling that she was sleeping with my husband and causing problems between us. She said "fine." she crawled into a hole close to the ceiling that i hadn't notice before.
I decided to follow. There was this fan that blocked the way and I was afraid it would turn on and slice me in half if I crawled threw it thats why I never even thought it was possible someone could be hiding up there, but I had a feeling she had been back there all along....I grabbed the fan and ripped it out of the way and crawled in the hole.
There was this dark greenish glow around me and on the walls as i entered her bed room. I looked around and ask " how long have you been staying here??" she said " the whole time you've been here and married."
Basically I felt a huge invasion of privacy, she probably new everything about us and seen us having sex and stuff. I was really mad, but the dream ended and it switched to my ex who was sitting outside my old house. I felt like he was watching me. I felt scared and I woke up.
Anyway I was very mad and after working out the fight with my husband I was about to tell him about dream but didn't. I never tell him. I'm so ashamed..plus it's about my ex and I can't do that, but I feel so alone in this.
I just wanted to write this dream down so I remember it. I've had so many dreams about my ex but they went away about 6 months ago, basically once I got married and moved out. But they just came back last night when I had a fight with my husband. I thought I was cured from the nightmares but one fight and I get them back. I'm just journaling so I don't forget the dream. Imight need to see how often I have them and what triggers them so it won't happen again. Anyways....the dream went like this.
Iwas in my apartment and stopped when I saw my ex's ex who he cheated on me with. She looked like a sexier version of avril laven even though she don't look like that for real.
I asked her what she was doing in my house. She smirked at me and said "I have a key duh, I live here."
I was shocked I felt like screaming but I calmly said "I'm married and thats wrong for you to be here, get out of my house now...."
I had a feeling that she was sleeping with my husband and causing problems between us. She said "fine." she crawled into a hole close to the ceiling that i hadn't notice before.
I decided to follow. There was this fan that blocked the way and I was afraid it would turn on and slice me in half if I crawled threw it thats why I never even thought it was possible someone could be hiding up there, but I had a feeling she had been back there all along....I grabbed the fan and ripped it out of the way and crawled in the hole.
There was this dark greenish glow around me and on the walls as i entered her bed room. I looked around and ask " how long have you been staying here??" she said " the whole time you've been here and married."
Basically I felt a huge invasion of privacy, she probably new everything about us and seen us having sex and stuff. I was really mad, but the dream ended and it switched to my ex who was sitting outside my old house. I felt like he was watching me. I felt scared and I woke up.
Anyway I was very mad and after working out the fight with my husband I was about to tell him about dream but didn't. I never tell him. I'm so ashamed..plus it's about my ex and I can't do that, but I feel so alone in this.
