Years ago I tried many different antidepressants, I can't remember most their names, but I know that they either made me a zombie, made me a more aggressive and angry or gave me weird shock zaps if I missed a dose.
We found a combination without any antidepressants that worked for the worst of the symptoms.
So I've been on lamictal (amazing mood stabilizer for me) for most of the last 13 years. Initially I took it with risperdal but slowly backed off on the risperdal until now I rarely take the 2nd med. I also like to have zanax on hand and prefer it over risperdal but have rarely needed to take it for several years.
Since my diagnosis, my therapy has mostly been what I would call supportive therapy. I learned skills to ground myself, calm myself and recognize triggers, etc. Therapy for the most part dealt with day to day life, skirting around and avoiding trauma topics.
Now I'm seeing a new therapist who is willing to go head on with it all and this is what I want.
However my symptoms are getting worse again after sooooooo many years of just having what I would describe as attacks of ptsd symptoms I'm now having lingering - almost all the time - symptoms. Nightmares, empty hollowness - like numbing I guess, depressed mood, increased inability to tolerate any stressors and therefore angry outbursts, bouncing between avoidance and obsessing, difficulty focusing, my day to day memory which is already bad seems even worse and finally ... some mild dissociation.
I think I want to try antidepressant add on and am going to see p-doc next Friday.
I just want to try something that will make me feel happy, good and motivated, something stimulating. Not something that will make me tired and zombie like.
Would love to hear your thoughts.
We found a combination without any antidepressants that worked for the worst of the symptoms.
So I've been on lamictal (amazing mood stabilizer for me) for most of the last 13 years. Initially I took it with risperdal but slowly backed off on the risperdal until now I rarely take the 2nd med. I also like to have zanax on hand and prefer it over risperdal but have rarely needed to take it for several years.
Since my diagnosis, my therapy has mostly been what I would call supportive therapy. I learned skills to ground myself, calm myself and recognize triggers, etc. Therapy for the most part dealt with day to day life, skirting around and avoiding trauma topics.
Now I'm seeing a new therapist who is willing to go head on with it all and this is what I want.
However my symptoms are getting worse again after sooooooo many years of just having what I would describe as attacks of ptsd symptoms I'm now having lingering - almost all the time - symptoms. Nightmares, empty hollowness - like numbing I guess, depressed mood, increased inability to tolerate any stressors and therefore angry outbursts, bouncing between avoidance and obsessing, difficulty focusing, my day to day memory which is already bad seems even worse and finally ... some mild dissociation.
I think I want to try antidepressant add on and am going to see p-doc next Friday.
I just want to try something that will make me feel happy, good and motivated, something stimulating. Not something that will make me tired and zombie like.
Would love to hear your thoughts.
