Anxiety frustration, body pain and sleeplessness

[Strangelongtrip]

This is just a rant mainly. I've been so anxious from around July 4th, it's just been getting worse and worse. This is anniversary date time of multiple sexual abuses. Recently my body is so tense and my sleep is so bad (I wake up 5 times throughout the night, have nightmares) I've been having what feels like the flu-like pain. I'm exhausted, frustrated. I was trying to prove to myself I could work 9am-6pm with some breaks just for feeling good about myself and like I can actually work and I feel so sick I can barely sit up, but I'm so anxious laying down that I can't sleep. The whole thing I was trying to prove was that I could do something that requires thinking as a job (right now my job is very simple and doesn't require too much of my brain), and I'm so anxious I can't think. Just really frustrated. Idk if this makes any sense, I feel so hazy and exhausted.

 

[Invisible Fire]

Yes that all makes sense. And I can relate. What I have learned is whether its a few days, weeks or longer it will pass. It is a important time for self care. Its ok to sit in peace and try and rest even if you can't sleep.