I met this wonderful girl. We have been dating for about 3 months. She's amazing. There is a lot of external factors that cause it to be a bit rougher for us. We are long distance which is a type of relationship I really have started to like and peruse for the past 2 years. I haven't had a irl relationship since then. But she's 14 timezone hours away and It's so hard to get time to talk to her.
This relationship is so different from anything I have had in the last 2 years or in general. I wont go into specifics but my last few relationships were unconventional and conditioned me to have a bit of a skewed view on the workings of things.
She's much more conventional and traditional and I love and appreciate it about her a lot. She has a lot of other lovely qualities about her like loyalty, honesty (most of the time with few exceptions), dedication, wit, a wonderful sense of humor, and even though she's damaged too we make each other happy.
Even though we barely get to talk I am more than content knowing I have her and her heart even if my access to talking to her is so limited. But I have this anxiety and worry that I don't usually have, I actually never have had this anxiety in a relationship. But I am so afraid to wake up one day and she's gone. That she will just decide to be done with me. This is a massive concern. And she actually feels the same about me. We both have this intense fear of the other getting bored, or too frustrated with the distance or lonely or giving up on us.
I don't know why I feel that way and even more why she does. I don't like this. This has never happened to me before. I'm gonna go now. thanks for reading. be back later. hope someone can help me. and her.
This relationship is so different from anything I have had in the last 2 years or in general. I wont go into specifics but my last few relationships were unconventional and conditioned me to have a bit of a skewed view on the workings of things.
She's much more conventional and traditional and I love and appreciate it about her a lot. She has a lot of other lovely qualities about her like loyalty, honesty (most of the time with few exceptions), dedication, wit, a wonderful sense of humor, and even though she's damaged too we make each other happy.
Even though we barely get to talk I am more than content knowing I have her and her heart even if my access to talking to her is so limited. But I have this anxiety and worry that I don't usually have, I actually never have had this anxiety in a relationship. But I am so afraid to wake up one day and she's gone. That she will just decide to be done with me. This is a massive concern. And she actually feels the same about me. We both have this intense fear of the other getting bored, or too frustrated with the distance or lonely or giving up on us.
I don't know why I feel that way and even more why she does. I don't like this. This has never happened to me before. I'm gonna go now. thanks for reading. be back later. hope someone can help me. and her.
