Anyone Else Left Their T Speechless?

[Punky143]

Because it's quite entertaining to see her facial expressions. But what I'm trying to figure out if I blanked out and it was another part. I can recall the beginning of the session and maybe a few sentences and all of a sudden time was up. I recall the topic which is one I've actively ignored but needing to be discussed. I don't remember moving in my seat which is something I do constantly as we switch. And I'm scared

 

[Deleted member 34328]

How often do you see your therapist? Is this what happened during your last session? Are you able to verbalize this to your therapist?

My therapist has left me with my mouth hanging open simply because he says something completely outrageous. It is funny. I've done the same. I don't always think before I say something. Occasionally something ridiculous comes out that has nothing to do with what's being discussed or it completely ruins the serious tone of the sessions. Yup, the expressions can be worth it... depending on the cost. (not meaning money)

When is your next session? I would encourage you to bring up everything you posted. I think it's all important to bring to the table.

 

[Sideways]

Yeah. Therapists that didn't specialise in trauma, and talking to them about the way I self harm. It's a pretty frightening experience for me, because if a T can't handle it, then how the hell am I going to survive it?

I left a T in tears once after I switched during a session and apparently gave an eerily detailed account of one of the times that I was abused. Again, it was really unsettling for me realised that me and my junk had pushed them to the threshold of what they could cope with. Because again, if they can't cope with it, and they do this professionally, how am I going to cope with it?

Be gentle with yourself, and maybe bring it up with you T next session... Did I mention be gentle with yourself? This stuff can be really confronting.

 

[Punky143]

I see her tomorrow and have journal for her to read cause it's scary.

 

[FireSign8]

Hi. I won't pretend that I know what you are up against, so I will just come out & ask you this...
Have you recently changed meds or added a new food to your diet?
What scares you the most - not knowing where time went or not knowing if it is safe to tell the therapist about it?
I ask these things because I often just "zone out" & have no idea if it was from my former head trauma or that I just was body snatched & went time traveling while some strange entity used by body to do who knows what! So, I always feel ok about it if I'm still in the same place where it started instead of being in some strange unknown location. Is this part of PTSD too or something else in addition to other anxiety laden psyche terms?

 

[Punky143]

So today is Saturday. I have no recalection of writing that...I have bad amnesia...

 

[FireSign8]

I just got to read this on sunday afternoon. I will try to play catchup on amnesia. Oh how I sometimes wish I could forget some of the shit I've taken part in over my many years on this planet. Buy nooooo, I eventually remember every detail at times that are extremely inconvenient & uninvited for me!

 

[Iyllsa]

I've never left a therapist speechless but because I've grown in a situation where I wasn't allowed to show any hesitation, doubt, or any weakness. If I did, it would be taken advantage of.

I was in an abusive home for all of my life and only starting to get help for it.

I have left my therapist speechless once or twice.. first time was when I described the ways I've reached out for help and how no one did anything, or how people have seen me get beaten up and told things in public, but did nothing. She couldn't believe that so many people just stood there.

Another one was actually recently. Last session. I thought I told her about this but I guess not.. I told her about one of the people I've experienced die literally in my arms. I was at a young age and it got quiet for a second before she composed herself once again and suggested I become an EMT or work with the police force haha.

Writing it out and handing it to your therapist sounds like a good idea. I wish I could bring myself to write it down and hand it to her, but to me writing it out is just as bad as saying and I can't bring myself to say it..

 

[Punky143]

Me too...the thoughts are rampid but fail to be verbalized...