Sufferer Anyone Else Suffered Severe Traumatic Event In First 2 Years Of College/university?

[Adrin]

Nevermind, it's not worth talking about due to the pain it may cause others here.

After looking through dozens of pages of content on this site I feel that my own personal story would likely be criticized or disregarded due the vast amount of certain PTSD sufferers on this site and how the people who caused my own PTSD and completely destroyed my entire life were of that group of people.

Far more important than those points is that my story would likely cause further suffering for a large group of people here and their families.

So nevermind. The survival and health of the many is far more important than the survival and health of the few. I would rather accept and deal with my own problems than post a story which would likely only increase the suffering of hundreds of others.

Good luck everyone. May you find peace and learn a way to deal with your PTSD. This is a sacrifice I am willing to make.

My only hope is that all of you come to the final realization, no matter how many years it takes, that what you suffer from and what it leads you to do is not your fault.

God speed to all of you. May you find peace and happiness.

 

[Jen93]

They don't delete threads, all content is the property of PTSD forum.

As for the thread, I think it's an interesting question. Yes, people are often traumatized as children, but what about those approaching adulthood? Would the impact still be as severe as those traumatized in childhood/preteen aged? Wouldn't it be easier for them to process what happened versus a child?

I was re-traumatized in November- and I'm just out of my first year of university. I'm not quite sure if that would really count though- I was traumatized when I was in eighth and seventh grade- as well as sixth.

 

[Adrin]

I completely edited my post. Honestly what happened to me and what completely ruined my life was caused by people in the same "group" of people a lot of posts here are about.

I know for a fact that my own story would only cause them more harm.

So I am making the decision to not post about it again and to move on handling my own PTSD and the severe symptoms that accompany it by myself as I have done for the past 2 years.

If anything I think that's a huge difference in people suffering a traumatic event in childhood or adulthood. I am capable, as a young adult, of choosing to hold my own pain within myself in order to spare a far greater majority of people the pain my story may cause.

I know what I describe isn't a common "theme" amongst the current younger generation. But I have always fought for, believed in, and stood up for the morals, ideals, and themes that I believe would lead us to a greater existence. In part it was those beliefs which led me to my near death PTSD event which consumed half a year of my life and of which the PTSD symptoms consumed my life up until now. Standing upon those same principles that led me to this point in my life is only logical.

 

[Jen93]

I understand. I think you meant to post in the Introduction section. The people here are really very supportive though, and you don't need to share anything if you're not ready to; some people are just more open than others and that's perfectly fine. However, don't misjudge us as critical before you've even talked to us- we're in pain too, and we wouldn't turn away someone else who is legitimately in pain, no matter how small the trauma may seem.

Don't worry about causing anybody else here harm, we are all here as a support network and to work on our healing. Sometimes the best way to do that is to just let it all out. Again, I suggest to check out the Introduction section- you only need to share what you feel comfortable with.

I'd also like to point out that we all choose which pages we wish to view- we have the power to go back to the forum list if we find something triggering.

 

[sisu]

Adrin - EVERYONE'S life is important. YOU are important. Please share your story and begin to heal. The people on this site are very supportive. In the forum setting, if something someone writes triggers a person, they can chose not to participate in that thread. You would not harm anyone on here.

Please reconsider, people do care. :)
Sisu

 

[Adrin]

No, I simply can't. I won't. If you logically consider everything I've said you should be able to figure out the group of PTSD sufferers I was talking about. I simply refuse to post my story because I know it will make some of their own experiences seem completely meaningless. Telling my story would likely push several (if not dozens) of PTSD sufferers further into their own nightmares and self hatred.

Of course my life is important. But telling my own story publicly in an attempt to relieve my own frustrations and anger would most certainly increase the frustrations and anger of others.

I can not in good conscience do that.

 

[BloomInWinter]

Adrin,

Truly, if you wish to share, please do so. If you do not want to, then don't.

If we can be helpful, we will try to be.

Don't worry about how it will affect others as if they don't care for it, they won't read it.

I'm too much into my own survival to allow any one person on here to have the kind of psychological power over me. I don't have that power over others, either. That's 'magical thinking' and not logical. We just don't affect others that way. They may feel some feelings but we are but a small drop in their life's rainfall.

I can tell you that it would be difficult for you to share anything that I haven't dealt with before. ...and that is true for most of us on here, I suspect.

 

[Anna]

Welcome to the forum :)

I suffered trauma at the age of 17 when I just started my A-levels and once again had a traumatic event when I was 19 which was the first semester of my university degree.

As everyone says, Adrin you are important as well! Don't feel afraid. Noone will bite you here. It is a haven and you may find comfort and healing as well :)

 

[BloomInWinter]

Adrin, I reported your abusive private message to me and I have block you.

Being ill is ok. Fishing for people to abuse on here because they reach out to you is not.

Just a suggestion for others reading this...if you ever receive abusive private messages from people on this forum, report them and hit 'ignore.' We're not here to be someone's punching bag.

 

[Jen93]

Hmm I thought it was just rage, and his profanity did shock me. If others have received the same message though.... Whoa. O.o I suggest you do find a psychiatrist and a therapist. They can help with you.