Yes, I miss some people. I miss them very much!
Far too many times, me and my unmanageable life, or self, has allowed too great of distance and resultingly friends and relationship lost. Never having intended it to, this happened with my highschool sweetheart as well, along with highschool friends, family and since others, ....perhaps after too great of feelings of fear, old guilts and shame.
Also, I have all too often believed myself to be a rotten burden to others (even if I wasn't) and both with and without knowing so, I've allowed this belief to rule.
After times of having lost recognition and awareness and therefore strength over, this strong-destructive part of my false self-image, I'm just this moment realizing once again, this deeply ingrained belief has owned more of my life then I have.
:(..:cry:..and this belief has destroyed and can make me both feel :dead: and wish I were :dead:.