Ice_Fire
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So, i have a lot going on right now. I know this and I know that I’m of course going to be feeling all shook up at the moment.
Split up with my partner of 8 years. Realised the relationship was very unhealthy and bad for both of us.
A friend and colleague is having a bad time with another colleague who she was with and that’s gone south. In a big big way.
My mother has lost the plot again and I have had to be firm with police and social services about keeping me out of it but of course, that was after they contacted me so I was triggered already.
My cousin has basically accused me of lying, that he doesn’t believe ‘just stories’ from his family about why I’m not ‘there for’ my mother. Not that it is any of his business but it has been very invalidating.
I’m lonely, I am all over the place. Recently found out I have ADHD as well as cPTSD. Which explains a lot but now I’m noticing just how controlled I am by my own brain chemistry. I feel like my executive function is almost non-existent right now. Up and down like a yo-yo.
I am trying to tread water, trying to do all the right things with eating and sleeping and attempting mindfulness. But still, one day I’m hyper, the next I’m depressed, the next I’m flat.
I just don’t know how to ride this out without causing chaos to the people around me. Which is making me want to isolate but I know that’s bad for me…
Split up with my partner of 8 years. Realised the relationship was very unhealthy and bad for both of us.
A friend and colleague is having a bad time with another colleague who she was with and that’s gone south. In a big big way.
My mother has lost the plot again and I have had to be firm with police and social services about keeping me out of it but of course, that was after they contacted me so I was triggered already.
My cousin has basically accused me of lying, that he doesn’t believe ‘just stories’ from his family about why I’m not ‘there for’ my mother. Not that it is any of his business but it has been very invalidating.
I’m lonely, I am all over the place. Recently found out I have ADHD as well as cPTSD. Which explains a lot but now I’m noticing just how controlled I am by my own brain chemistry. I feel like my executive function is almost non-existent right now. Up and down like a yo-yo.
I am trying to tread water, trying to do all the right things with eating and sleeping and attempting mindfulness. But still, one day I’m hyper, the next I’m depressed, the next I’m flat.
I just don’t know how to ride this out without causing chaos to the people around me. Which is making me want to isolate but I know that’s bad for me…
I understand what it's like to be having to deal with multiple issues whilst also trying to maintain some kind if stable equilibrium. Is it possible you could try a combination of fitness (like swimming, walking,running/any other) with meditation? Both are very good at regulation and improving mood.
