Susan Jane
Silver Member
I decided today to stop working until I feel well enough to go. I am scared and exhausted. I have been surviving for so long in ….money is security … work more…work harder…thinking and working myself to the point of another episode of …I can’t function. The thought of it … going back there is causing me horrid panic attacks which disable me. I know the feeling, dissociative and panicked…I felt this way as a young child. I feel so guilty for calling in sick, my mind tells… this is all your fault, why can’t you just be normal, like all the other employees. I used work as to distract myself from my trauma and loneliness, and being a perfectionist has made me fall back into this episode. The sun is coming up, I have been awake for hours, and well another day in this state is not my idea of fun. Any thoughts?