Ashamed

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Y'know, I don't see how it wouldn't, I mean, that's kinda how things work, right?

 

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Intellectually I know we do not need to be ashamed. We take on other peoples shame. I was assaulted by a cop and he should be ashamed but I am ashamed. He assaulted me and took me to the hospital. The prosecutor and magistrates knew it but did nothing, probably afraid the city would be sued. Big man, he made a woman very humble. I would love to move to another city and don't know how to feel safe here or if I ever will.

Bloomin Winter talked about moving and packing the feelings. I guess I know that is true or I would figure out how to move by now. I just don't know how to get rid of that shame and feel safe. I am trying and have progressed a bit but am really struggling with this. I know that you can be attacked for nothing by a cop in the town. I know deep down that I need to solve this right here. I dont know if this is part of ptsd but sometimes I feel like everyone knows that something happened but dont know the truth. A part of me wants to tell, another part hides in shame. Any advice?

 

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I don't know, brat, but I feel like everyone knows there's something wrong with me, too. Just by looking at me. Part of me wants to scream to the world that I'm f*cked up but I'm doing my best and the rest of me wants to bury me and all my problems under a rock so no one will ever know I and they ever existed.