Sexual Assault At What Age Did You Start Fantasizing About Sex?

[Abstract]

I think 6 is way before puberty and I don't think fantasizing about aggressive sex at that age could be a spontaneous thing without "help"/exposure in that direction in some form or other. Just before puberty without any exposure to CSA? Yes, possible. Accidental self stimulation? Yes, possible. That is different to fantasies about sex.

 

[anonymous]

started fantasizing aged 9.

was sexually abused by bio mother aged 4/5 to 8.

used to split off into a male alter and fantasized (alone) about being a male having sex with older females.

I'm now 34 and only date other females but in my teens I had relationships with both males and females.

 

[anonymous]

Stuff may or may not have happened before. Related medical things did. Fantasized assault type sex around 10. Puberty 10. Some molestation around 11 over a few years then rape and assaults in late teens and adulthood.

 

[Lionheart]

I learned about sex from a book of Swedish pornography and also sexual child abuse and I don't think I developed a very healthy view of sex. As there was no love involved and I soon began to fantasize about abusive sex because that is all I knew. I was age 10.

 

[Deleted member 8714]

No CSA

Masturbating - Toddler
Aware of Sex - Early Elementary
Fantasizing about Sex - Puberty / aka age 9-10

Yes for CSA.

Masturbating - Toddler
Aware of Sex - Kindergarten
Fantasizing about Sex - Kindergarten

 

[KBambi]

9-10

 

[ImjustasnailSNAIL]

I was 4/5 when I started masturbating and having fantasies that involved humiliation and ridicule.
By 12, I was fantasizing about rough sex with older boys and men.
It was only after I was raped the first time that I started to have actual rape fantasies. I think it’s all been my brain coping with trauma and preparing for more by making me think I’d enjoy it.
I honestly disgust myself with some of the things I read and look at and fantasize about. Like, to the point of nausea at times.

 

[1991]

I was maybe three and mine will have a similar content always contains some toys sort of torture violence of kidnapping and offten rape
I was not molested until I was about 10 11 so I really have no clue where all of it came from

Also o p what is d. i .d I tried looking it up and I can find nothing

 

[somerandomguy]

No CSA.
I started having my first sexual feelings towards girls at age 3.

Also o p what is d. i .d I tried looking it up and I can find nothing

D.I.D. = Disassociative Identity Disorder

 

[Whiterthansnow]

I fantasized about sex when I was 10, but that was 4 years after my brother and his friends started using me sexually. ..so I imagine that's where it came from.

 

[Kubash16]

I honestly don’t know. I know I have a memory or openly masturbating in class in first grade and I know that definitely wasn’t the first time, but I have no clue when it began.

 

[Alexis]

I figured an anonymous forum is a good place to ask questions I'm too embarrassed to bring up in an actual therapy session. I've recently been diagnosed with DID, and I guess I'm searching for possible causations.

I can't figure out if I'm "normal" or not. So help me out here.
At what are did you start fantasizing about sex? Especially if you were not sexually abused in childhood.
And here is why I ask.

I probably started fantasizing about sex around the age of six. I would use these sexual fantasies to lull myself to sleep every night. The details often changed, but the main theme would always stay the same. I would fantasize that I was being passed around and molested by a group of adults. To me, these thoughts, especially at such a young age, should be concerning, especially considering that as an adult I have newly been diagnosed with DID, but have no clue as to why. But then again, maybe sexual fantasies at that age are not unusual at all. Or maybe the content isn't actually an uncommon theme. So, I'm reaching out in an attempt to seek answers. I apologize for the awkwardness of this thread.

I have had this exact experience, and I thought I was the only one. I don’t know what it means