Baby Pictures In The Next Week Or So I Hope!

[HëllaBubz]

Next thursday, or anytime between now and a little after then, I'm expecting to welcome my little girl into the world.
Yes, I know it's just another child, and there are millions, but the changes she has brought to my life has literally been the key to the lock that was my existance.

I most likely won't be on here very much in the following weeks, dealing with heat, sleep deprivation and a newborn is going to be rather demanding.

My greatest success in this 9 month journey has been learning when to stand up for myself, and knowing when to stop standing up, and rather just remove the feet that kept trampling me. Since excising my parents from my life, I have learnt to cope and manage far faster than I ever thought possible, and the sense of freedom and self worth is overwhelming.

I've now been coping well enough to consider, and firmly commit to giving birth naturally, although I'll be having an early epidural to combat triggers from routine practices during labor. I'm looking forward to meeting my little girl, and not stressing about who turns up to visit, or any shit like that, because I'm feeling really secure in myself, and I'll deal with whatever happens, when it happens.

I've also got my amazing psych and partner to thank, we've been working so hard, and even though there are things that still need working on, and will continue to be addressed, I've reached another milestone that I didn't know was there to be reached.

Right now, I'm chilling on the bed, hearing my cleaner fairy work her magic on my house, and enjoying resting and feeling bubs move as I type this. My little dog is at my feet enjoying the fan on this hot day, and I'm looking forward to seeing the look on my other half's face when he gets home to a spotless house and a yummy dinner.

He keeps telling me to cook bubs faster, but the little darling will come when she will. I know we are both eager to meet the sweetheart that was the answer to our silent heartbreak when everyone else around us were having children, and we couldn't, she has facilitated the start of so many good things in our life this year.

Here's to starting fresh, but remembering our roots while we learn about this new human, and her needs and take on the world we live in.

 

[InsideAWord]

That's so wonderful. Congratulations!

 

[Leah123]

Congratulations in advance Mama! A little free advice from someone w/PTSD who's been there, done that: sleep, care for baby, sleep care for baby, sleep, care for baby, get some fresh air when you need it, sleep, care for baby. That's not what I did, but what I wish I had done in retrospect, lol. Enjoy!

 

[mytai]

Congrats @TheBubzilla !!! This is so exciting for you. I'm new here so I don't really know much about your journey but congratulations!

Also heat?! What is that? Right now I'm experiencing 2 feet or more of snow. Want to trade places? But this is such an exciting time for you. Again congratulations!

 

[DMerish]

Bubmama :p

I'm so glad to hear you're in a strong, confident place. :D And I definitely second Leah's advice! :tup:

We'll be waiting for those uploaded pics! :inlove:

Drew :hug:

 

[HëllaBubz]

Hey guys, that's so much for the support, it means heaps!

Yes, other than feeding, changing and washing bubs, the only other to-do on my list will be to sleep whenever I can. Can never have too much of that stuff from my perspective!

And yes, I'm more than happy to trade for 2 feet of snow, it's 31 Celcius here, and it's killing me. The poor dog is so hot she doesn't know where to lie down, and that's after I clipped off all her fur yesterday!

I'm not massively worried about the labor, and all of that, whatever happens will happen, and I've always got my psych and partner to help me afterwards anyway. I've got a 7 day stay in hospital pencilled in, so that will be more than enough time to make sure that I've got breast feeding established, and confident enough to head home myself. If I need more help, they'll let me stay, and the midwives have been amazing so far.

It's really nice having you all there when I need to vent, it's really filled in the hole left by excising my parents, but at the same time the hole was always there, they were just still tied to me.

The BH started with a vengeance about 2 weeks ago, and now they aren't quite so savage (or I've just adjusted to the pain level) but now they seem to be lesser but more often. I do find I'm pretty tired though, so I'm off to get as much sleep as I can before bubs decides she's ready to meet us all.

 

[Reds]

Congratulations, I am happy for you

Reading your thread makes me realize how much I'd want to be a mom, if only I could get over the fear that I'd ba a bad mom.

 

[kahlan]

Congratulations! :) My little guy saved my life. When stuff gets bad knowing he needs me is what keeps me going. Any child is a gift to be treasured! Good luck with the sleep ;) and take care of yourself and her well :)

 

[Bees Are Awesome]

Congrats to you, for both the new baby and your positive outlook on things. I wish only good things for you and your family.

 

[HëllaBubz]

if only I could get over the fear that I'd ba a bad mom.

I personally think that can only happen if you forget what you hated about your own childhood/parents, and lean heavily on your support network, or be willing to create one.

You have an actual reason when you discover you're pregnant, rather than telling yourself that you need to do it for yourself, you realise that doing things for yourself makes you feel good, and when you feel good you can cope, and when you can cope you are confident in how well you're taking care of someone.

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I wish only good things for you and your family.

And the occasional mischief to keep things interesting??? :eek::p:p:p:D

 

[Bees Are Awesome]

Naturally! And a little mischief is now and then is good, isn't it? ;):laugh:

 

[Candleflames]

Congrats on the new addition. There's nothing quite like snuggling your child to make even the worst of days melt away.