Battling Between Insomnia And Sleeping Too Much Anyone Else?

[madmax]

I get not having the money for Psychiatric care(read some of my crap today) But it's been weeks of you listening to my drivel yet you chose not to use the "forum" to work this shit out.

I can tell you I express more meaningful data to you people than my (T) deserves or could ever understand...books smart only takes you so far into "our" world. Agreed?!?

Max

 

[Pencil]

I agree, TB - it is especially when I'm upset or unsettled that I refuse to go to bed ...

 

[madmax]

Thats a start Pencil!;)

 

[ashdawn8287]

I go to therapy every week once a week for a hour. I just became a member here yesterday and have spent a lot of time on here reading and looking for comfort. I feel I don't want to miss out on anything to and yes it is for sure the inner child driving the bus and I have to smack her out of it sometimes. I don't necessarily do it on purpose and I'm still exploring my sleep issues. I have nightmares, they are in the form of symbols and I am also hypersensitive before bed. I'm working on it because well, I'm a work in progress :)

 

[madmax]

ashdawn,

I should not of directed my narrative to you. Please accept my apologies.My lack of sleep over the last two days got the best of me!:oops:

 

[ashdawn8287]

No apology necessary I understand completely.

 

[Pencil]

start

I've been stuck in 'start' for decades, though. And yes, the child is in charge.

 

[ashdawn8287]

Yes, you need to start and finish. You deserve it. See where it takes you, you never know.

 

[Pencil]

you need to start and finish.

And so do you, I guess. Here's a suggestion, you take the lead, and I follow ;)

 

[ashdawn8287]

Sounds like a plan. I'm a natural leader anyways ;)

 

[Pencil]

Right ashdawn, what do I do now?

 

[ashdawn8287]

Be honest with yourself and critically think and try to make sense of everything. Feel your feelings and realize they are irrational and have nothing to do with the present. I have learned the past few days that I process the world symbolically. My PTSD is symbolical. I am going to use all of that energy in healthy ways one day at a time. I decided to take an art class to use imagery for my healing to explore all these feelings. I have also decided to take yoga classes to keep me grounded and in the moment. In order to move on I realize you have to peel back all off those nasty layers and get to the real you and start from there,even if it is dumb, even if you don't believe in yourself, even if you discover it is just you at 2 years old and take care of that person, you have to do it.