Becoming A Wino - Time To Sober Up

[Gloria]

I'm not going to lecture because I love you guys too much and you have been so supportive and the last thing I want to do is insult you or tell you what to do. But I gained so much weight when I went into my drinking jag. I would get up and eat all this junk food. I have lost 25 pounds now and am really in shape. It's just a healthier way to live and honestly, my addictioin now is probably exercise. I broke my back so it wasn't easy. I sarted out in a therapy pool and then worked my way up to doing lapses in the pool. With any kind of pain in joint or muscle, water takes the weight off joints and I find it heavenly. I have many years experience with alcohol - cunning, baffling and powerful. My father was an alcoholic and I ended up marrying alcoholics. I pray that you will find your path. I can tell you from experience, it's so much easier if you don't do it alone.

Hugs,
Gloria

 

[charliehotelwhiskey]

Good for you James on reacting to something that can become a problem. I'm fighting with alcohol issues also at the moment after being on the wagon for years. I fell off quite recently, actually more like a faceplant onto the ground, and struggling to get back on the wagon. Dealing with PTSD just got too much for me and I needed to numb out. Unfortunately, I got weak and hit the booze.

Just take it one day at a time.

 

[Deleted member 11079]

Alcohol and me don't get along. One glass and I am relaxed but I have slightly fuzzy edges for a few days, and it takes about 8 days then suddenly there is a bounce in my energy and I feel clearer and happier and more motivated again. I don't know why it does that to me but I've noticed that it's consistent. 8 days to get out of my system and feel happy and bright again.

 

[Gloria]

I stayed completely sober and medication free for ten years. I got absolutely no relief from PTSD and I totally white knuckled. Okay this might be totally off the wall comment. But what about sex??? You don't get a hangover, it completely relaxing you and increases endorphins. Let's be adults here. Okay you don't have a partner but sex still helps to relax and it's better than pills or booze. :)

 

[LoyalOne]

My father drank his life away last summer, and my brother and I almost followed him down. I give everyone in here enormous amounts of credit for trying to put their feet down on this issue. It is so hard.

 

[jka37]

I'm drinking wine right now, and realizing that I'm 2/3 of the way thru the bottle I bought today. That's not good...and I did that last night, too. Spaced out over 8 hours, but not cool, right? Gosh, it sure is tasty wine though!

I just remember how worried I was when I saw my dad drink a bottle and a half in a night, but right now I'm doing the same thing...sneaking over, and pouring myself more. Just like him. Even thinking about how its not good, and then doing it anyway.

I'm afraid of making a problem for myself, but I just feel so drawn to alcohol right now, especially since ptsd kicked up. It's relaxing. And it doesn't help that my mom is paranoid about alcohol. Part of it feels like drinking because I know she isn't watching over my back to tell me I shouldn't now that I live on my own. She was all worried about my dad and projected that onto me...but maybe she had a reason.

I had two days with no alcohol this week.

Bedtime.

 

[James B.]

Thanks for all the comments and input, everyone. Think my little slide into alcohol use had a lot to due with the terrible ongoing nature of the chronic myofacial pain (CMP) in my left leg. I got the inflammation down and my brain seems fine again without wanting to have any alcohol.

Alcohol and me don't get along. One glass and I am relaxed but I have slightly fuzzy edges for a few days, and it takes about 8 days then suddenly there is a bounce in my energy and I feel clearer and happier and more motivated again. I don't know why it does that to me but I've noticed that it's consistent. 8 days to get out of my system and feel happy and bright again.

Sounds about like me, thanks hillbilly

Good for you James on reacting to something that can become a problem. I'm fighting with alcohol issues also at the moment after being on the wagon for years. I fell off quite recently, actually more like a faceplant onto the ground, and struggling to get back on the wagon. Dealing with PTSD just got too much for me and I needed to numb out. Unfortunately, I got weak and hit the booze.

Just take it one day at a time.

Thank you, charliehotelwhiskey :)

 

[James B.]

'm not going to lecture because I love you guys too much and you have been so supportive and the last thing I want to do is insult you or tell you what to do. But I gained so much weight when I went into my drinking jag. I would get up and eat all this junk food. I have lost 25 pounds now and am really in shape. It's just a healthier way to live and honestly, my addiction now is probably exercise. I broke my back so it wasn't easy. - I started out in a therapy pool and then worked my way up to doing lapses in the pool. With any kind of pain in joint or muscle, water takes the weight off joints and I find it heavenly. - I have many years experience with alcohol - cunning, baffling and powerful. My father was an alcoholic and I ended up marrying alcoholics. I pray that you will find your path. I can tell you from experience, it's so much easier if you don't do it alone.

Thank you Gloria for the very thoughtful reply and sharing of experience. :)