General Been Away For Awhile

[Glara]

Needed to avoid PTSD for a bit, to try to move forward.

Ed isn't one of my Facebook friends but I suspect he looks up my profile even though it's private. I went out with some work friends last Friday, to say goodbye to one that is moving away. I posted a picture of some of the people I was with as my profile background. It happened to be 3 men, all husbands of friends. Ed texted me that Sunday. It was only a week since the previous text. Lately he's been texting only once a month. And this text was more involved and he even sent a picture. Idk for sure if that's why he did it, but I just feel like it is. He even texted again the next day. It's not healthy for me to be thinking like this, it just surprised me to hear from him when I wasnt expecting to so I foolishly start analyzing. Hey, I'm only human.

On a completely different note, my daughter is moving back home! I'm so happy! I know she's not happy but she was having roommate trouble and can't afford to be completely on her own. I'm looking for a condo for the two of us to live together in. My living situation right now is not a very good one. We are actually considering a trip to Paris now that she won't have many bills and can help pay for it.

For me this past year was horrible and having her leave was part of it. At least now I'll have her back, even if it's not forever. This has been the loneliest time in my life that I can remember.

I want to thank everyone on this site who's given me support. This has been the only place I could come to talk. I'm not leaving, but I am going to continue not to come here as often, so that I can focus on things other than PTSD. I will always come back to see how everyone is doing that has helped me, so that I may be able to help them as well. And Ed will always be somewhere in my life, heart and mind, so I'll probably need some support again at some point. Thanks again to everyone.

 

[Wastinglight]

That's so great that your daughter is moving back home, @Glara! You sound more positive than you have done in a while, that's really good to see.

Facebook is a bit of a minefield for me. I ended up blocking my (now) ex, because if I didn't, I knew that, sooner or later, I would be tempted to look at his profile, to see what he was up to. And then I would start analysing everything he - or someone else - wrote. I don't want to do that though, I want to move on. If you block Ed, neither of you will see anything that the other person does - it may help maintain your peace of mind? Just a thought.

 

[Sweetpea76]

I'm glad your daughter and you will have more time together!

 

[Peach]

Ed texted me that Sunday. It was only a week since the previous text. Lately he's been texting only once a month. And this text was more involved and he even sent a picture. He even texted again the next day. It's not healthy for me to be thinking like this, it just surprised me to hear from him when I wasnt expecting to so I foolishly start analyzing. Hey, I'm only human.

So true. These things always do send us back into the hamster wheel again. Good luck with everything. Glad things are looking up with your daughter. Paris will be great! How exciting!

 

[nursenurse]

Glad all seems to be looking up for you, it will take awhile before the analysis of everything he does stops. But you sound happier, and that itself is cause for joy. Hugs :)