Being Happy

[Weapon]

I'm not sure what it means anymore to be happy or what it is to be "normal" whatever that is. Through the years i have gradually slipped away...more times than not I'm wondering what happiness is and if people really have this feeling. Again it's been a long time since I knew what happy is. I'm not sure if it depression or if I'm just defective. It sure feels like I'm the defective one that can't enjoy what I have.

 

[Trembling]

Weapon, I do not believe that you are defective, your emotions are just somewhere hidden.

My hubby is not happy at the moment either, but it is the depression which causes the loss of this wonderful feeling. Same as I did.

I am sure there is a way back to it, it has to be!

 

[heidi]

It does sound like depression.

I don't have much advice. I think sometimes a chemical cloud can lift and you see things differently. How to make it lift I'm not sure.

I wish I had something more encouraging to say. I guess when it comes to depression I just wait for it to pass. Maybe realizing it's depression and not your self would help.

 

[piratelady]

Weapon, you are not defective. I agree, it sounds like depression. Remember that when we are depressed, the negativity feels so much worse and like it will never lift. That is the depression speaking and in time you will begin to feel better. Try to do small things to try to help your mood, like changing your diet and exercise.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I agree with the others, it sounds like depression. It makes everything grey. I have so much to be thankful about but I struggle with depression too. It passes here and there. I wish you the best with what you are dealing with. It has to get better. There is hope and help. One step at a time will take us to where we want to end up. I believe there is a better life ahead for us. Good luck.